Bouncy, bouncy

like one of those little rubber bouncy balls that we all had as children and used to torment our parents.
That's how my headspace has felt for weeks now. I couldn't seem to settle, one moment I was content to be in control and the next for no reason at all I needed to be controlled and then in the next I didn't want either, like completely random huge big bounces.
It was bouncing around so much I had trouble keeping up with it myself, so it came as no surprise when I was taken to task about it and the way it was impacting on the time I spent with someone. It was really strange trying to explain something I myself didn't and still don't understand.
I mean how do you explain something that came on out of nowhere and in mid explanation changed how you where feeling and what you wanted??? How do you explain that you're not being difficult or deliberate and that as much as you wanted something 10 min ago, you just cant face it now and would rather have something completely different.
I still have no idea where it came from or what caused it but at least it seems to have settled and nothing has changed in days. I suddenly seem to be able to say, I know what I want without having to fear it will change before I have the words out, even the words seem to come out more easily.

Now if I can only get what I want to bounce my way ;)