I did

YES PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and yes there are no prizes for guessing that I'm the thumb and fore finger

Can I find the light now please

"Honor your challenges, for those spaces that you label as dark are actually there to bring you more light."

Sanaya Roman

Feels like my road to hell is paved with everyone elses good intentions

Isn't it funny 2 hours ago when I got home from spending a really pleasant evening with my brother, I was in such a good space, I had no work to do this weekend, I had something to look forward to and I would say I was actually almost content for the first time in I can't remember how long.
Now I'm sitting here disappointed, sad and alone with nothing to look forward to but more of the same sad and alone and I actually find myself wishing that my boss hadn't been so generous about not giving me work for the long weekend because I need the distraction.

What more can I say

Been feeling like this a lot lately

I don't know if I can keep doing this on my own after all but I don't really know that I have a choice.

Just say no, the way our parents taught us to

SO true

Not sure I like still being vulnerable after all this time but I guess I always will be

“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable.”
~~ C.S. Lewis, The Four Loves

Seriously I'd

probably find this hysterical any other day but today.

I listened

and found something extreamely special, how about you?

What more can I say

A lesson I REALLY need to learn and fast

I couldn't have said it better

Broken

Got SO very much to say but my words appear to be broken, this however does sorta almost say some of what I need to say

My Declaration

I'll take you just the way you are

Imperfect words inside the perfect song

I feel you closer than you are

I've been waiting far too long

Too long

It's
my declaration

to anyone whose listening

You're my inspiration

as I stand alone against the world

Cause you love

and you bleed

cause you stole my soul

and set me free

It's my declaration

Do
you care what i believe

or that i wear a heart upon my sleeve

Sometimes i think you never knew

the only truth i see is you

It's you

It's
my declaration

to anyone whose listening

You're my inspiration

as I stand alone against the world

Cause you love

and you bleed

cause you stole my soul

and set me free

It's my declaration

And are
there any words to say

that would ever mean enough

When the light runs from the day

will the darkness be too much

Will I ever be enough

It's
my declaration

to anyone whose listening

You're my inspiration

as I stand alone against the world

Cause you love

and you bleed

and you stole my soul

and set me free

It's
my declaration

So tell me you can hear these words today

It’s
my decleration

Happy 70th Birthday Dad.
Wish you were here so that we could celebrate
Miss you

I'm attempying to relearn how to live, laugh and love after a really bad few months. Here's hoping it doesn't take as long to learn this time around

As much as it hurts,

I am eternally grateful for my ability to love endlessly and unconditionally. . . .

More needles
More blood
more of the inevitable
Waiting
Alone

I carry