Smile

This one made me smile.

Simply because it's so true.

So many people don't see or know the real me.

The me that is hurting and that is failing so hopelessly on this journey to becoming who she really is.

For the simple reason that I put on this face for the outside world to see.

This face and attitude that nothing ever phases me and the I'm doing just fine.

Only to turn around and fall apart as soon as no one is looking.

I think thats why this blog has been such a blessing, because I get to escape to here and to let that other side out, the side that is breaking, the side who wants nothing more than for someone, anyone to acknowledge my exsistence and that I am in fact needed even if it's only in some small way.

Here I let out the real me for the world to see knowing full well that apart from the one person in my life who sees this side of me anyway and seems to accept it to some extent although I'm sure it frustrates the hell out of him that I'm such a girl sometimes, no one I know will ever know just how much they've hurt me and just how close I am to walking away from everyone and everything and just disappearing.