Feel

You teach me how to feel
It feels all right
There's nothing left to fear
Finding myself
The further I go
Towards you

You teach me how to love
Parts of myselfI hated for so long
Loving myself
Through loving you

I no longer live like a man in the dark
Hiding all the pieces of my broken heart
Way up high I'm holding on
Way up high I'm holding on to you

You teach me to forgive
It feels all right
Compassion for your pain
Compassion for mine
The circle divides

I no longer live like a man in the dark
Holding all the pieces of my broken heart
Way up high I'm holding on
Way up high I'm holding on to you

I think I may have posted this before but it just says so much to me and about me at the moment.
I posted yesterday that I was feeling very mecentric, self centered, h3ll whatever you want to call it only to be informed that I care to much. This all resulted in a sleepless night for me because to me it just didn't make sense that other people percieve me as this person who cares to much and yet I feel I don't care enough, I feel as if I'm cutting myself off and put plainly avoiding caring.
Now I dont know but I'm guessing this is me trying to protect myself again from this need I have to be needed.
You see I hinted at it in my other post and the more I thought about it all last night the more I kept coming back to the fact that my real problem is that I need to be needed.
I need someone to need me not neccesarily want me, like me or even love me (although that may be a nice change of pace) but rather just to need me.
To need what I have to offer and to need me to be there. And yet there is no one.
I went through everyone in my life last night trying to find the one person that I could honestly say needed me and I couldn't find a single one.
My brother doesn't need me, yes I pay the rent but if I wasn't there he'd make his own plan.
My friends don't need me they all have their own lives with people they need and who need them.
The men in my life don't need me, they want the way I make them feel but that they can get from anyone so inclined.
The one person I thought may need me on some level clearly doesn't.
So yes nobody needs me and yet thats the one thing I need desperately.
To be needed.

So yes I guess I do care to much in my own self centered way because I need to be needed.