Oh my soul, now what

So here I am sitting in the office, alone, never a good place for me because it means I'm thinking and thats generally where my trouble starts but I'm avoiding going home. I for some reason just can't face being alone right now. I came to a realisation about something today that has me running scared, it's something I've been avoiding, it's something I haven't wanted to admit but after today I have NO CHOICE and not only don't I want to face it but I sure as h3ll don't want to be alone if I have to. So yes it's just another Friday in the mad world that is my life.