It's a sad day

Two things happened today that have me reeling just a little.

Firstly I realised that of late I've become a little self obsessed. I have in the last little while become totally me centered. I've stopped being the person I've always been, the person who cares for others and wants to make others happy. I may have been feeling more like me but that was just because I was only thinking of me.

The second was something that someone said to me and is totally at odds with what I was feeling till that point. The long and the short of this conversation was that my biggest fault is that I care to much and that, that caring is likely to end up costing me simply because I give to much.

Now you tell me how I can be feeling totally self centered and mecentric and be caring to much at the same time because it just doesn't make any sense to me.

What I can tell you though is that it hurts when your biggest fault is pointed out as the percieved fact that you care to much since in my eyes I'm not caring as much as I should be. It's a sad sad day indeed.

Or maybe it's just that I finally get that I need someone to need me and nobody does so it really is just all me. Which in fact is even sadder.