Strange

thats pretty much the definition I would use for my day so far.

I don't really have much to do today, but for a change that isn't problematic, insperation has struck and I am working on a little something. Don't have a clue who I'll be sharing this one with but that's niether here nor there.

The strangeness has actually come from the people I've had to deal with today.

First off one of the "woman" mentioned in my earlier post phones me and asks me to put in a good word for her with her significant other, she doesn't want to lose him (seems he is moving out, like I didn't already know and maybe getting caught with someone else may just have been a contributing factor)............ clearly she doesn't read my blog, otherwise she wouldn't have wasted her time or if she does well what can I say ............. blondes

Of course then I get that phone call we all never really want to get, the one from someone you're no longer seeing, by their choice not yours. Turns out my friendship may mean just a little more than my not wanting to "date" him. Ok honestly I'm glad he phoned, there was a pretty big hole in my life where he used to be. It's pretty hard walking away from 9 years.

But the strangest thing was an email I got. I have no idea who the person is that sent it to me and how they got my email addy is a mystery since the addy they used is one that only a handful of selected people have. The least strange thing is it's one of those emails we all get at some stage or another filled with silly advice we know we are never going to take anyway, but we read anyway. The strange part is the topic of this advise (yes I'm going to add it here), because I've been feeling like this and have refused to give in to it. Maybe now I will, after all I'm only human.

"Sometimes we need to fall apart

We don't always have to be strong Sometimes our strength is expressed by being vulnerableSometimes we need to fall apart to regroup and stay on track. We all have days when we cannot push any harder, cannot hold back the self-doubt, cannot stop focusing on fear, cannot be strong. There are days when we cannot focus on being responsible. Sometimes we cry in front of people. We expose our tiredness, irritability and anger. Those days are ok. Part of taking care of ourselves means we give ourselves permission to "Fall Apart" when we need to. We do not need to be perpetual towers of strength. We ARE strong. We have proven that. Our strength will continue if we allow ourselves the courage to feel scared, weak and vulerable. We need to experience these feelings. Today, help me to know that it is okay to allow myself to be human. Help me not to feel guilty or punish myself when I need to "fall apart"

Author Unknown"