"Honesty is the best policy"

Whoever it was that coined that phrase really had no idea what the hell they where talking about.

In the last week my being honest has lost me a friend that I really cared about because I was honest about not wanting to have a "real relationship" with him. After years of waiting and hoping I finally move on, he changes his mind and I'm now the one in the wrong.

But wait as they say in the classics it gets even better.

I've been involved with someone for a while now and the agreement when we got into whatever this was developing into was that we would push boundaries together and if either of us came up against something that was outside of what was comfortable we would back off and work on it together. So of course as the universe would have it, the I'm not comfortable there moment comes up this last week and I being the honest idiot that I am tell him comfortzone exceeded, fully expecting that as we agreed we would go back and work on seeing if we could get this particular moment into the comfort zone together. After all that was the agreement and it had worked that way before. But of course thats not going to happen this time is it, no instead I get the if thats the case I'm out of here response. So much for trust, HONESTY, respect and caring.

So honesty has amongst other things taken a really good friend and someone I cared about and someone else that I was building something with, that up until now had been something really good and all this just from last Wednesday.

With that in mind I can't help but wonder what else I've been honest about in the last week is going to end up costing me. Yes I will sadly continue to be honest because I dont believe that you can build anything of value on lies and half truths but maybe I will think twice in future before I trust anyone enough to be honest with them and yes that does include friends that have been around for years as well after all honesty cost me one of those as well.

In the meantime I have learnt, I have laughed although not about this, I still love way to much and I am at least finally living