Decisions, decisions, decisions. . . . . .

Satan has been sitting on my shoulder for days now and I need to make a choice. You see I found something out quite accidentally the other day and depending on how I use it, I can either get the one thing I would really like for my birthday all be it a little early and prove that I am no better than the rest. Or I can not use this knowledge and prove that I am the better person and that I can keep to an agreement but lose the only shot I'll get. This shouldn't really be a problem because I know what I would do under normal circumstances. The circumstances however are very far from normal . The descision I make has the potential to make things difficult for someone I care about or to give us both something we wanted but let go for the sake of others. So here I am on the horns of a dilema as they say. Do I do the one thing I know is going to make me happy even if it's only for a few hours and has the potential to cause harm but could also give me everything I now know I want or do I do the thing that I know is right and has no potential to do harm but will probably be the last chance I get. What to do, what to do. . . . .