The Bad and not so bad

Sheesh talk about a continuation of my previous post on memories. (yes the one I finally posted this morning since I remembered the flash drive)

I sometimes wonder about the universe and the messages it’s trying to send. I printed one of these silly sayings for myself today... (Yep the one at the top of the post), I just felt I needed something to remind me and boy did it.

Anyway I digress, I needed to keep busy this evening and decided to go through some of my mom’s stuff and came across some stuff I never even knew she had kept. What I found was a packet and in that packet where a wedding invitation, 2 letters, a few photo’s, a change of address form and a cd. Now I was pretty sure I had gotten rid of all the stuff related to this particular event in my life but obviously my mom and her friend the universe thought that at some stage I’d need reminding so these things had been preserved.

Ok I guess I should be a little more clear here, you see the wedding invitation was to my wedding (the one that never happened). The letters where from the ex fiancé, one that he wrote just after we got engaged claiming he would love me “eternalways”, yes eternally and always just were not long enough so he created a whole new time span, the other was one I had never opened trying to get me to forgive him and take him back (yeah I finally read it). The pictures where of him and the change of address form was well just that a form I’d filled in with what was meant to be my new address in San Louis Obispo (me, USA bound, what a joke) and the cd, well that was the master of the compilation of songs we had chosen to have made as gifts for wedding guests (I’ll admit I do still love some of those songs, but there are a few that if I never hear them again it will be too soon).

If you had asked me even this morning how I’d react to any of this I would probably not have been able to answer you because I wouldn’t have known although I would have predicted tears in the very least, but now I do, know that is. You see I now know for sure it is over and in the past. For the simple reason, that none of this had any effect on me. I am finally free of it. So yes everything will be okay in the end and since it was, it is THE END. . . . . . .