Monday, May 18, 2009

Sadness ............ Overdosed

I actually don't know where to start today, I've been trying really hard to come up with something positive to say about this past weekend but am just not finding anything. Friday we lost a close friend. Saturday I tried something and failed hopelessly, it was something that had worked before, this time the chemistry was just gone. A glimmer of the hope I had died when I finally realised that one of the things I really wanted was gone. Sunday someone close to us lost someone special and this morning the news was just as bad, another friend lost senselessly.
I'm trying really hard to feel anything other than a sense of inevitabilty, death and loss are after all, just that, inevitable. The one guarantee we get in this life. Just another thing for me to rise above, after all thats what I do, shut up, accept and carry on, what other choice do I have.

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