No Surprise

With everything that has happened in the last few weeks I've spent a lot of time soul searching and trying to figure out what the hell it is that I want and I've kept coming back to the same thing.
I'm settling and not in a good way either.
I've sat back and settled for what I have. I haven't wanted to take risks and fight for what it is that I really want. I've kept doing things because they are comfortable and there is no risk involved anymore.
I've even kept on seeing someone that I knew I shouldn't be seeing just because it was safe well sort of and I had already lost so much. I held on to him just to be able to say I hadn't lost everything, he certainly isn't what I want and I definetly am not going to fight to keep him.
I heard the new Daughtry single again this morning, ok so it was one of the 3 from my previous post but hearing it again this morning just confirmed to me what I already knew. And you know something, it is no surprise that I'm walking away, because it's not what I want I have no option I'm going to finally just admit that I'm not in this for any of the right reasons and I'm pretty sure it won't come as much of a surprise to anyone that I won't be there tomorrow. . . . . . . . .

and yes I'm posting lyrics again. . . . . . .

No Surprise

I've practiced this for hours,
gone round and round
And now I think that I've got it all down
And as I say it louder, I love how it sounds
Cause I'm not taking the easy way out
Not wrappin' this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

It came out like a river once I let it out
When I thought that I wouldn't know how
Held onto it forever, just pushing it down
Felt so good to let go of it now
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow
There's nothing here in this soul left to say
Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow
God knows we tried to find an easier way
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
That's why this comes as no,
As no surprise

If I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it's better than where we are now
But after going through this
It's easier to see the reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today(stayed till today)
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise
Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise