Written last night

If you had seen me earlier tonight, you would no doubt have thought about having me committed. H3ll I even thought about it. There I was standing out on the balcony in the pouring rain, soaked to the bone, lightning, flashing all around me, the thunder God’s rumbling and instead of heading inside like any sane person, I just stood and laughed. I laughed like I haven’t laughed in the longest time, laughter bubbled up from the very core of me and it felt good. Cold, but good. I don’t know why but it felt as if the doom and gloom that has surrounded me for so long has finally lifted, it felt as if I’d finally rediscovered my joy and this time not in the tiny little stolen doses I’ve been getting but a huge whopper of a dose that makes everything ok. I don’t understand it and I’m sure as nuts not going to try and explain it. Instead I’m going to enjoy feeling like a complete me for as long as it lasts and keep on hoping that this time it’s for real ......... And now 'm going to be a girl and run me a bubble bath :) wanna join me???