Wants, Needs, oh h3ll now what

For the longest time now I’ve wanted to spend some time with someone, but our lives have interfered and gotten complicated and I get it and it doesn’t worry me, I can deal with the wanting, it is after all part of the deal. What I have however suddenly had in the last week is an intense need to be with him that though was never part of the deal and is what I’m having trouble dealing with.
A want I’ve always been able to get round, it’s like wanting chocolate or coffee or anything else for that matter I can usually distract myself and I find something else that I may not want as much but hey presto problem solved. This needing thing however has me stumped because I know when I need sugar there is no way to get round it, I have to have sugar or face the consequences (ok so I have low blood sugar and maybe that’s not the best example) but I just haven’t been able to find a way to distract myself, I haven’t been able to find that hey presto either and trust me I’ve tried.
So why the change from a want (desire, hankering, fancy according to Oxford) to a need (necessity, demand, urgency also Oxford), who knows maybe it’s everything that had happened in the last week in my life, maybe it’s that I need to be wanted by someone, anyone (ok not really anyone), maybe it goes back to me and my feelings of inadequacy and a need to feel good enough for someone or something although I sincerely hope that’s not it. Or maybe it’s just that I need to feel and instead of trying to hide from my feelings, maybe it’s that I want to feel all the things he makes me feel when we spend time together, maybe it’s that I want to laugh and forget for a few minutes, maybe it’s that I want to feel alive inside and feel like me again and maybe it’s just that I want more than anything to see him smile because when he does anything and everything seems possible. Or maybe it’s as simple as I miss him, who knows. If you figure it out though please let me know