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Have you ever heard a song that seems to have been written just for you???
Well I recently found an entire album that seems that way to me.
Every song seems to have something to say about some part of the journey I'm currently on and there are lines out of some of the songs that stand out so profoundly to me at this moment in time that its as if they are the very thoughts I'm having.

I have posted some of the song words recently because it really does seem as if Chris Daughtry has been in my head and his words have been able to say exactly what I want to say just so much better than I ever would have been able to.

Now if you have read my last post you will know I have been having a hard time dealing with some of what I'm finding out about myself and funily enough this morning I was really having a hard time with something I have chosen to do, so as I normally do when I'm in a place like this I went to media player and the first song that random selected for me today (yep random is a good friend) was Daughtry's Home ........ coincidence maybe but there are 2 lines in the song that everytime I hear them speak to me, the one is "I don't regret the life I chose for me" and the other "be careful what you wish for because you just might get it all and then some you dont want"

Well, I certainly don't regret the life I've chosen, it may have it's painful moments, no pun intended and it may be costing me some serious soul searching at the moment, but the only regret I have is that it's taken me so damned long to get here and maybe that I let other people influence me away from what I knew deep down a long time ago was right for me.

The other line is very simlar to one my mom used to use on me years ago and it's funny but I probably do still believe that, funny thing is though sometime last year a friend and I where talking and the one question they asked me was if I had one wish what would it be and my answer without hesitation was that I would want to know where I was headed.

Funny how life works, it wasn't long after that conversation that I started the journey I'm on now and there are moments that I think I really don't want to be here and that I get really scared by what I am discovering about myself but those moments pass and I get back on track and then it feels like I'm finally home and I know that I'm exactly where I want to be be with the people I want to be with and that no matter what happens I will NEVER regret the path I've chosen after all we only get one shot at this and I intend to make this one heck of a ride................