LIVE, LOVE, LAUGH

I woke up this morning to a world washed clean by an awsome Highveld storm and realised that, thats exactly what this new year offers a clean slate..........

The oppurtunity to recreate myself and my life, to finally leave the past in the past.......

Why would I want to do that you may well ask and I asked myself that same question as well, the answer is quite simple really.......

The past 3 years for me have been a torrid time of loss and hurt ...yep all that stands out for me of the last 3 years is loss

The fiance I thought was my future (what a girl thing)...
My gran ( no relation but a grandmother to me none the less)
My dog, who'd been a constant companion for 16 years
A father..that though difficult, I had only just started to understand and appreciate
Another dog ...this time the one that saved my life litrally
A home I loved
My mom.... who was my best friend , confidant and biggest supporter
and we lost our business............and somehow between all this or maybe because of all this I lost myself........

Yes there where a couple of gains and they where important ones, well some where anyway, but it's the losses that stand out and have started to define me and all I do because I go in expecting to lose.

Well no longer....as of today I will expect to win...I will no longer hope for the best but expect the worst..... I will no longer expect to be hurt even though I probably will be......

I will no longer accept that for myself...........................I will finally start to LIVE, LOVE and LAUGH even as I learn