Those moments

Have you ever experienced one of those moments when you just know thatthis is someone special and where you know that person will feature in your life somehow????

Funny thing is it's happened to me twice.

Once 9 years ago when I met my knight in shining armour (oblivious he may be, but still he is special). I don't open up to people easily so it was a unique experience when I met him, there was just something comfortable, something right about being with him and spending time with him. We instantly became friends, we laugh a lot and he grounds me and makes me want to be a better person and he has seen sides to me that I have hidden from everyone and even though I have in the past cried buckets about his being oblivious to me and walked away and not spoken to him for months he is always there in the background, if Ineed help, he's there…when my dad died, he was there, when my engagement broke down he was there despite not having spoken in 6 months, when my mom died, he gave up his all his free time to be with me and I don't know how I would have survived it without him…he has earned his title of my knight in shining armour.

It happened again just recently, I met somebody who from the first moment I saw him there was just something. He smiled at me and it was like something switched on. I was comfortable with him from that first moment and still am comfortable even though some of our conversations have been blush inducing. I enjoy his company, he makes me laugh, he makes me want to push my boundaries and has made me open up sides of myself that no one knew existed. Hell I don't think I'd even admitted to myself some of the sides he's seen existed. It's very new what I have discovered and yet it feels right. It's extremely complicated, to the extent that it's actually simple. He once said he was worried about hurting me, I'm willing to take the risk for the simple reason that what I'm learning about myself may never have come to the surface if I hadn't met him and because I want to. And becauseI'm hoping that he may have more to teach me.

Funny, how the same feeling about 2 people can have such different results. I enjoy spending time with and talking to both these men but for very different reasons and yet also for many of the same reasons and I hope that if I'm still blogging in 9 years time they will both still be part of my life in some way and that we will have all learnt something about ourselves from this experience. And maybe if I get really lucky I will have experienced this feeling for a 3rd time and it will have been the one I'm meant to be with, in the meantime I will live in hope and continue to

Live, Learn, Laugh and maybe even Love

K