Me, Reloaded. . . . . . . . Again

Yep, you guessed it I've been having a really torrid time again of late.

Lost myself almost totally this time and probably would have if it wasn't for a very special person who despite their own troubles has been there and kept my pieces together when I couldn't.

Don't really know why I let people do to me what they've done this time (long story for another day maybe) except that somehow I end up feeling guilty when I put me first so I'm always last if not further back. And yes I've been read the riot act by 2 really cool yes I dare use the word friends and I'm trying really hard to remember that if I dont put me first, I'm actually useless to everyone I've been putting ahead of myself.

Anyway I digress, this is meant to be about me and my reload.

Yesterday was the begining of a new year for me and what a begining.

Couldn't believe some of the people and significant events I share my day with when I sat and looked for something to post.

One siginificant one I left out of yesterday's post was a reference to Anne Frank (Blogger kept eating the picture and spitting out gibberish for some reason only Blogger knows). I hadn't realised on any of the numerous occassions that I've read The Diary of Anne Frank that she started writting her Diary within days of her 13th birthday on June 12th 1942.

That got me thinking about inner strength and personal power and all that type of thing and when I took myself off for a long walk a little later there where ALL SORTS of things going through my head and some 2 and half hours and loads of songs later I was home, feeling a little more at peace and more in touch with me. (and yes I started reading The Diary of Anne Frank AGAIN last night)

They say "what a difference a day makes" and in my case it's SO true this time.

I feel like a new person today.

I had an expetional birthday filled with the most important people in my life and the best surprises EVER.

I have never felt more important, sherished and loved than I do at the moment and I'm finally finding me again.

So here's hoping the rest of my hopefully not halfway year follows the same pattern because if it does I'm in for a great ride and a year filled with laughter, learning and love and I can't think of a better way to live.

And THANK YOU to those of you who helped make my day so special in your own special way, each and everyone of you has a special place in my heart and I love you all in my own special way