This Year

This year, is gonna be incredible
This year, is gonna be the one
All the planets are lining up for me
This year, I'm gonna have fun

This year, I'll paint my masterpiece
This year, I'll be recognized
I can feel like I'll fall in love for real
This year, this year

January, I'll learn to fly
February, love's gonna find me
March, April, May, I'll get carried away
Oh, oh...

This year, I'll reach the pinnacle
This year, I'll get to the top
People will ask where she get that energy
This year, I'm never gonna stop

January, I'll learn to fly
February, love's gonna find me
March, April, May, I'll get carried away
Oh, oh, oh, oh...

This year, is gonna be incredible
This year, is gonna be the one
All the planets are lining up for me
This year, I'm gonna have fun

I'm gonna have fun
Just watch me now
This year

When I posted these lyrics nearly six months ago I had every intention of living my life by them , of living them to the full, of making this a year that I would never forget, in short a good year.

Life however had other plans as it usually does. Things have changed dramatically for me and not all for the better. Although the bad now seems to be turning around (well I live in hope anyway).

There are however a few things that stand out about the last 6 months and they are the things I’m choosing to focus on, for the simple reason that they are the type of things that the song alludes to. The things that, no matter how bad it’s been, have made the last 6 months, a good year so far.

Things like rediscovering old friends and building new stronger friendships. Things like saying you’ll be there and meaning it with every fibre of your being and then actually being there. Things like rediscovering a side of me (just recently in fact) that I thought I had lost forever. Things like having something you thought you had lost forever returned to you. Rediscovering my passion for what I do and discovering a whole new direction that I can venture off on with what I love. Finding that letting people in hurts far less than trying to keep them at arms length. Finding that one person who can no matter how bad things are and how much you want to cry make you smile and better still who makes you laugh for no other reason than because you are happy to be with them. Things like learning and growing and slowly becoming the you, you want to be.

There will no doubt still be challenges and bumps in the road to be faced in the next 6 months, in fact it’s pretty much guaranteed but I will keep focusing on the people and small things that till now have been making this year the one J