And thats all I'll say :P

More than Anyone

You need a friend
I'll be around
Don't let this end
Before I see you again
What can I say to convince you
To change your mind of me?

I'm gonna love you more than anyone
I'm gonna hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm gonna love you more than anyone

Look in my eyes, what do you see?
Not just the color
Look inside of me
Tell me all you need and I will try
I will try

I'm gonna love you more than anyone
I'm gonna hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm gonna to love you more than anyone

Free for you, whenever you need
We'll be free together, baby
Free together, baby

I'm gonna love you more than anyone
I'm gonna hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm gonna love you more than anyone

I'm gonna love you more than anyone

Ok, so I'm having a musical make up for lost time day but this one just talks to me on a level that is hard to define:D

Fearless

I don't do new years resolutions for the simple reason that it's a guaranteed way to disappoint yourself. I have however decided that this year coming I will be living my life just a little more fearlessly. It's time to stop over thinking things and just live after all whats the worst that can happen I get hurt, well that happens even when you're running scared. So here is to a year lived fearless

Fearless

There's somethin' 'bout the way the street looks when it's just rained
There's a glow off the pavement, you walk me to the car
And you know I wanna ask you to dance right there
In the middle of the parking lot, yeah

We're drivin' down the road, I wonder if you know
I'm tryin' so hard not to get caught up now
But you're just so cool, run your hands through your hair
Absent-mindedly makin' me want you

And I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearless
And I don't know why but with you I dance
In a storm in my best dress, fearless

So baby drive slow 'til we run out of road
In this one horse town, I wanna stay right here
In this passenger seat, you put your eyes on me
In this moment, now capture it, remember it

'Cause I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm in my best dress, fearless

Well, you stood there with me in the doorway
My hands shake, I'm not usually this way
But you pull me in and I'm a little more brave
It's the first kiss, it's flawless, really somethin'
It's fearless

'Cause I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm in my best dress, fearless

'Cause I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm in my best dress, fearless

I lost my heart today again :)

Ok, so earlier this year I thought I'd found the bike of my dreams in the gorgeous red beast above and had my heart set on having one, I was in fact convinced it was love and that I'd never look at another bike the same way. I found out today I was wrong. I fell in love with another bike this afternoon. Now before anyone goes getting any ideas because they happen to ride the same bike, yes I will admit that I had liked the Fazer before and had considered it after a talk we had but I was a Vmax girl. That was until today, today sold me completely on the Fazer and I now have a new goal and yes it's that I want one.

I have to thank Steve for being such a gentleman when he came out the supermarket to find a crazy chick drooling by his beautiful new blue baby. We must have spent at least 45 mins discussing her and her specs, the fact that I'm dying to learn to ride and that in his opinion (yes I know you said it first :P), she is the ideal bike for someone like me to to learn on. With 30 years on 2 wheels and 2 other Fazers in his past I'm guessing he'd know. She only has 61km on the clock and will be undertaking her first trip to Hartebeespoort in the morning before she is garage bound for 3 weeks while he is in Australia. Once again, thanks so much Steve, you have no idea how happy you made a silly girl today. May the angels, faeries or whatever you believe in keep you and your girl safe and may you enjoy many, many miles and smiles together. Oh and in case you where wondering about the picture below, this is it, the one I want but the picture doesn't do the bike or the colour justice but it's the best pic of a blue one I could find.

"I Shall Believe"

Come to me now

And lay your hands over me

Even if it's a lie

Say it will be alright

And I shall believe

I'm broken in two

And I know you're on to me

That I only come home

When I'm so all alone

But I do believe

That not everything is gonna be the way

You think it ought to be

It seems like every time I try to make it right

It all comes down on me

Please say honestly you won't give up on me

And I shall believe

And I shall believe

Open the door

And show me your face tonight

I know it's true

No one heals me like you

And you hold the key

Never again

would I turn away from you

I'm so heavy tonight

But your love is alright

And I do believe

That not everything is gonna be the way

You think it ought to be

It seems like every time I try to make it right

It all comes down on me

Please say honestly

You won't give up on me

And I shall believe

I shall believe

At least thats the theory :P

Choice and beyond

"I think that somehow, we learn who we really are and then live with that decision."

Eleanor Roosevelt

Profound words. I'm only just starting to understand who I am and every new thing I discover about myself still has the ability to derail the process a little but hopefully (yes there it is again hope) it will start getting easier in time as I get to know and understand myself better. Living with the decision is the easiest part, the consequences they're the not so easy part :)

Running

"Running away will never make you free."

Kenny Loggins

I've been trying to run from some of the things going on in my life only to have Kenny Loggins of all people remind me that as long as I carry this hurt and pain and continue to let certain people hurt me the way they have recently I will never be free. I guess it's time to face the past, deal with the present and maybe, just maybe the future will hold a little of that freedom I so desperately need.............

Foolish

"The foolish man seeks happiness in the distance, the wise grows it under his feet."

James Oppenheim

Foolish, wow no there is something I know more than I ever should about. I've been foolish in so many ways in the last year. I'm trying to fix things now though but I think some of my foolishness may have broken the really important stuff just a little more than I can hope to fix.

Hope

"For myself I am an optimist - it does not seem to be much use being anything else."

Sir Winston Churchill

Just when I felt all hope was lost today I came across this. I know I've been really quiet and there is just so much going on in my head and in my heart that I have no idea where to start . Maybe I should just be glad that I still have hope even if it is faltering *shrug*

Thank you "master"

"He that teaches us anything which we knew not before is undoubtedly to be reverenced as a master."

Unknown

Sail Away into ................................. oblivion

Not quite the sentiment I wanted to express when I started looking for a something to depict the feeling of wanting to sail away into ........ well ....... oblivion that I'm experiencing at present but then again why should others miss out just because I no longer feel this way. So here in the words of Mark Twain is some sweet sentiment.

Is it over yet??????

I am so over this entire holiday thing.

Consider this my last word on the subject till next time:P

This is a fight I'm not willing to lose

"It is impossible to win the race unless you venture to run, impossible to win the victory unless you dare to battle."

Richard M. DeVos

Luvs ya

It feels like home

I spent this evening watching a movie called “My sisters keeper”. I’m not going to spoil it and give away the story or anything like that in fact all I’m going to say is that it’s well worth watching although it is probably the saddest and most hope filled movie I’ve watched in a very long time.

What I actually wanted to comment on is a song on the sound track. It’s a song that I first heard many moons ago at the height of Dawson’s Creek’s popularity, a song that I hadn’t heard or thought of in an absolute age even though it held a special spot in my heart at one stage. Yes I’m a little sentimental in this regard as it was the song that epitomised my ex fiancé in my eyes and the way he made me feel at a time when we were at our happiest. Listening to it tonight was a little bitter sweet because I expected it to make me a little sad thinking about him but the actual eye opener was that the song no longer brings him to mind. It rather evokes a feeling within me and the acceptance that I never needed him to make me feel like I was home but rather that it was all within in me and that was why it felt like home to be with him even though we were completely wrong for each other. I also realised when I read the words which I have posted below that I have been lucky enough to once again find my way home not only to myself but also to those who hold a special spot in my heart and for that reason and that reason alone I am very glad that it once again is starting to feel like I am home

Feels like home

Chantal Kreviazuk

Something in your eyes
Makes me want to lose myself
Makes me want to lose myself
In your arms
There's something in your voice
Makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts
The rest of my life
If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've felt so low
If you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done

Chorus: Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where
I come from
Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

A window breaks down a long dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I'm alright 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see through the dark there's light

If you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
If you knew how happy you are making me
I've never thought I'd love anyone so much


Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

I need to break my shackles :(

"What worries you masters you."

Haddon W. Robinson

Everybody hurts

You think these are funny ???

Watch this and then you tell me

if you still think they're so funny

Sexual Starsigns

Lol, came across this and it gave me a giggle or three. Have to say some of the ex's are incredibly accurately described, actually not only the ex's :D

What do you say after sex!!!!

Aries

I'm hungry, pass the pizza.

Taurus

Okay, let's do it again.

Gemini

The first round was all good, ready for the next round?

Cancer

When are we getting married?

Leo

Wasn't I fantastic?

Virgo

That wasn't so bad... let me show you how it's properly done.

Libra

I liked it if you liked it.

Scorpio

Perhaps I should untie you.

Aquarius

Don't call me, I'll call you.

Capricorn

Do you have a business card?

Sagittaruis

Now let's do it again and again and again and again...

Pisces

What did you say your name was?

Tree of knowledge

Random

I have so much going on, mostly in my head as usual and it's left me feeling more than a little disjointed and all over the place hence the lack of proper posts in the last little while. Got a few thing brewing though that hopefully will pop out complete ideas with attached posts in the very near future. So watch this space and in the meantime enjoy the randomness of my posts pictures and otherwise while it lasts :P

Pretty Picture

Imagination

"Imagination is the secret reservoir of the riches of the human race."

Maude L. Frandsen

Dreams

"Dreams come true. Without that possibility, nature would not incite us to have them."

John Updike

I wish I may, I wish I might

You know who YOU are :)

Giggle

I know someone who knows what this ones all about :D

Heart of Life

Heart of life

I hate to see you cry

Lying there in that position

There's things you need to hear

So turn off your tears and listen

Pain throws your heart to the ground

Love turns the whole thing around

No, it won't all go the way it should

But I know the heart of life is good

You know it's nothing new

Bad news never had good timing

Then the circle of your friends

Will defend the silver lining

Pain throws your heart to the ground

Love turns the whole thing around

No, it won't all go the way it should

But I know the heart of life is good

Pain throws your heart to the ground

Love turns the whole thing around

Fear is a friend who's misunderstood

But I know the heart of life is good

I know it's good

I was surfing the net trying to find something to distract myself and I came across these John Mayer lyrics.

I'm not sure if I believe the concept that the heart of life is good anymore, there is just so much hurt and pain all around me and those I care about at the moment and it hurts so much knowing that I can do nothing to fix no matter how much I want to. It has me doubting. Instead I'm going to rather choose to believe that after the bad we're going through right now there can only be good. By all the gods (whoever they are) I hope so

Life Rulez

Blessings

Wish YOU where here :)

Just for YOU

Just a reminder

These where taken last night outside a bar :P Looking at them just now I realised they're a pretty good reminder of mother nature in all her glory. It wasn't a bad night either, you guys rock btw ;)

"A master can tell you what he expects of you. A teacher though, awakens your own expectations."

Patricia Neal

Ok, this made me giggle

Love is

What made REALLY Mona Lisa smile :)

Not quite in the Friday frame of mind YET!!!!!

Choice and Consequence

"Choice of attention - to pay attention to this and ignore that - is to the inner life what choice of action is to the outer. In both cases, a man is responsible for his choice and must accept the consequences, whatever they may be." W. H. Auden

Sarah McLachlan

For some reason I'm stuck on Sarah McLachlan and this particular song today. It feels pretty darn good to finally feel good enough :P

Good Enough lyrics
Hey your glass is empty
it's a hell of a long way home
why don't you let me take you
it's no good to go alone
I never would have opened up
but you seemed so real to me
after all the bullshit I've heard
it's refreshing not to see
I don't have to pretend
she doesn't expect it from me
Don't tell me I haven't been good to you
don't tell me I have never been there for you
don't tell me why
nothing is good enough
Hey little girl would you like some candy
your momma said that it's OK
The door is open come on outside
no I can't come out today
it's not the wind that cracked your shoulder
and threw you to the ground
who's there that makes you so afraid
you're shaken to the bone
and I don't understand
you deserve so much more than this
So don't tell me why
he's never been good to you
don't tell me why
he's never been there for you
don't you know that why
is simply not good enough
so just let me try
and I will be good to you
just let me try
and I will be there for you
I'll show you why
you're so much more than good enough...

From here on out I LIVE

"The question is not whether we will die, but how we will live." Joan Borysenko

Gone to soon

20 August 1950 - 9 December 2007

A life cut short to soon

I miss you Mom

So VERY true

"To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides."

David Viscott

Taking that leap

"Don't be afraid to take a big step. You can't cross a chasm in two small jumps." David Lloyd George

Happy

In Need of Some

"Let us go, now, and wake up our luck." Cyprian Proverb

My life

This Year

This year, is gonna be incredible
This year, is gonna be the one
All the planets are lining up for me
This year, I'm gonna have fun

This year, I'll paint my masterpiece
This year, I'll be recognized
I can feel like I'll fall in love for real
This year, this year

January, I'll learn to fly
February, love's gonna find me
March, April, May, I'll get carried away
Oh, oh...

This year, I'll reach the pinnacle
This year, I'll get to the top
People will ask where she get that energy
This year, I'm never gonna stop

January, I'll learn to fly
February, love's gonna find me
March, April, May, I'll get carried away
Oh, oh, oh, oh...

This year, is gonna be incredible
This year, is gonna be the one
All the planets are lining up for me
This year, I'm gonna have fun

I'm gonna have fun
Just watch me now
This year

When I posted these lyrics nearly six months ago I had every intention of living my life by them , of living them to the full, of making this a year that I would never forget, in short a good year.

Life however had other plans as it usually does. Things have changed dramatically for me and not all for the better. Although the bad now seems to be turning around (well I live in hope anyway).

There are however a few things that stand out about the last 6 months and they are the things I’m choosing to focus on, for the simple reason that they are the type of things that the song alludes to. The things that, no matter how bad it’s been, have made the last 6 months, a good year so far.

Things like rediscovering old friends and building new stronger friendships. Things like saying you’ll be there and meaning it with every fibre of your being and then actually being there. Things like rediscovering a side of me (just recently in fact) that I thought I had lost forever. Things like having something you thought you had lost forever returned to you. Rediscovering my passion for what I do and discovering a whole new direction that I can venture off on with what I love. Finding that letting people in hurts far less than trying to keep them at arms length. Finding that one person who can no matter how bad things are and how much you want to cry make you smile and better still who makes you laugh for no other reason than because you are happy to be with them. Things like learning and growing and slowly becoming the you, you want to be.

There will no doubt still be challenges and bumps in the road to be faced in the next 6 months, in fact it’s pretty much guaranteed but I will keep focusing on the people and small things that till now have been making this year the one J

Kassie 2009

On Saturday I took part in a toy distribution run that is a direct off shoot of the toy run held lastweekend where about 4500 toys where distributed to children’s homes, AIDS orphanages and children in various squatter camps. Not only did I get to spend the day with some amazing people and good friends, it reminded me exactly why it is I dedicate as much time as I do to the toy run. The Children and giving them just a few of the things that we all take for granted. If these faces don’t tug at your heart strings then I guess you must be made of stone or dead.

A group of orphans watch as toys are distributed

Are bars what his future holds or did we make enough of a difference, sadly a question that I'll probably never know the answer to

For You

Hope

"In all things it is better to hope than to despair."

Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

Never gonna be alone

I know I've posted these before but they just seemed to sum up how I feel today just perfectly

Never Gonna Be Alone lyrics
Songwriters: Kroeger, Chad; Lange, Mutt;

Time, is going by, so much faster than I
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of here with you
Now I'm wondering why I've kept this bottled inside
So I'm starting to regret not selling all of it to you
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
You're never gonna be alone, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands
'Cause forever I believe
That there's nothing I could need but you
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on
We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

Oh, you've gotta live every single day
Like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Don't let it slip away, could be our only one
You know it's only just begun, every single day
Maybe our only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Tomorrow never comes

Time is going by so much faster than I
And I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on
We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

Stolen words

“There is sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousands tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief… and unspeakable Love” [Quote]

You'll know where these come from and you'll know why I chose to use them.

Always and All ways

Toy Run 2009 Moments

This one is mine, there was just something about the scene that made me think, and the cutey on the push bike well as I said we start our bikers early:)

This is one of Warren's and it made me miss being out on the road. Maybe next year if I don't ride.....yes there you have it my goal for next year to ride Toy Run 2010

Toy Run 2009 Moments

Ok, these are mine, no laughing now

People, being well people

The arena at a moment I wish I had been closer

More of the peeps, being peeps

Some of our marshals and yes I know I'm going to get silly comments on this one :P

The hall just after 4am on Sunday

Toy Run 2009 Moments

These are more of Warren's

Crowds

Ok I'll stop drooling now

Giggle it says SO much

Toy run goes to the dogs