Negative, shemgative, you excpet anything else after the way you've all treated me?

If the last 48 hours has taught me anything it's how useless and pathetic I am for caring.
I really should have known better than to think anybody wouldgive a damn whether I was alone or not and clearly not one of them thinks I'm worth including in thier lives.

Family braai why invite your sister.
One of my closest friends birthdays, why include me even though you knew very well I wouldn't have been able to come.
Ask me to make snacks for a quiet evening in with friends and then after I spend 3 hours making said snacks tell me to make myself scarce this is for you and your friends only.
When I ask if you want to have coffee tell me you cant make it because you've just washed your car and you're worried it will rain.
When I ask if we can do movies tell me you're already at the movies in the queue to see Les Misrables a movie you promised to take me too knowing full well I haven't been to a movie in 6 years.

And then I get told I'm negative this morning, well excuse me but the 6 of the 7 people that mean the most in the world to me all managed to kick me in the teeth and prove to me that I'm absolute fool for caring about a single one of them in one night, how the hell do you expect me to feel.

Thank you for showing me the error in my ways, obviously caring and wanting the best for someone has no place in your worlds and I'm clearly better off alone