Monday, December 16, 2013
Friday, December 6, 2013
You are my favourite scar
Best jump
why do we feel we're going
nowhere 'less we're falling
We're not ready to give up until we're crawling
Don't make it easy on ourselves
Climbing risk it all if you ain't living you're surviving
Tell me why you dip you're toes when you could dive in
Don't be scared to hurt yourself
Take your heart back off the shelf
Love covers you up in a landslide
Love pulls you under like a riptide
Loves when you crash trying to handglide
Loves when you're running and there's no light
Love is a song when you've got no defense
Love is a rock we throw ourselves against
Love is the healing of a broken heart
The story behind all of my favorite scars
All of my favorite scars
I love my favorite scars
High wire don't look down because below you is a raging fire
But love is waiting for you on the other side
We're not easy on ourselves
So take your heart back off the shelf
Love covers you up in a landslide
Love pulls you under like a riptide
Loves when you crash trying to handglide
Loves when you're running and there's no light
Love is a song when you've got no defense
Love is a rock we throw ourselves against
Love is the healing of a broken heart
The story behind all of my favorite scars
All of my favorite scars
I love my favorite scars
We're not ready to give up until we're crawling
Don't make it easy on ourselves
Climbing risk it all if you ain't living you're surviving
Tell me why you dip you're toes when you could dive in
Don't be scared to hurt yourself
Take your heart back off the shelf
Love covers you up in a landslide
Love pulls you under like a riptide
Loves when you crash trying to handglide
Loves when you're running and there's no light
Love is a song when you've got no defense
Love is a rock we throw ourselves against
Love is the healing of a broken heart
The story behind all of my favorite scars
All of my favorite scars
I love my favorite scars
High wire don't look down because below you is a raging fire
But love is waiting for you on the other side
We're not easy on ourselves
So take your heart back off the shelf
Love covers you up in a landslide
Love pulls you under like a riptide
Loves when you crash trying to handglide
Loves when you're running and there's no light
Love is a song when you've got no defense
Love is a rock we throw ourselves against
Love is the healing of a broken heart
The story behind all of my favorite scars
All of my favorite scars
I love my favorite scars
Cher
Wednesday, November 20, 2013
Golden
The sunset falls in Wichita
Yellow dances through the blue
The wheat fields catch a glimpse of Heaven
Makes me think of you
Even when you're miles away
You're always on my mind
Lord, knows you're in my heart
Even when I close my eyes
You are golden
Precious as a prayer
Flyin' up through the air
While the rain is fallin'
Golden
Timeless as a kiss
Baby I don't wanna miss
Another perfect moment
To tell you
How you make me feel
The day you strolled in
My heart was stolen
'Cause you are golden
Smallest parts of who you are
Are everything to me
From the way you laugh, the way you cry
To the way you love all me
Shadows run and darkness fades
When you come around
My single star amongst the grey
Always shining down
You are golden
Precious as a prayer
Flyin' up through the air
While the rain is fallin'
Golden
Timeless as a kiss
Baby I don't wanna miss
Another perfect moment
To tell you
How you make me feel
The day you strolled in
My heart was stolen
(Heart was stolen)
'Cause you are golden, lovely
Oh so hard to find
Yeah you are goodness, forgiveness
Of the purest kind
Ooh yeah
From the day you strolled in
My heart was stolen
You'll be the hand I'm holdin'
When the heavens open
'Cause you are golden.
More Lady Antebellum
This ones for you Sweetpea
Yellow dances through the blue
The wheat fields catch a glimpse of Heaven
Makes me think of you
Even when you're miles away
You're always on my mind
Lord, knows you're in my heart
Even when I close my eyes
You are golden
Precious as a prayer
Flyin' up through the air
While the rain is fallin'
Golden
Timeless as a kiss
Baby I don't wanna miss
Another perfect moment
To tell you
How you make me feel
The day you strolled in
My heart was stolen
'Cause you are golden
Smallest parts of who you are
Are everything to me
From the way you laugh, the way you cry
To the way you love all me
Shadows run and darkness fades
When you come around
My single star amongst the grey
Always shining down
You are golden
Precious as a prayer
Flyin' up through the air
While the rain is fallin'
Golden
Timeless as a kiss
Baby I don't wanna miss
Another perfect moment
To tell you
How you make me feel
The day you strolled in
My heart was stolen
(Heart was stolen)
'Cause you are golden, lovely
Oh so hard to find
Yeah you are goodness, forgiveness
Of the purest kind
Ooh yeah
From the day you strolled in
My heart was stolen
You'll be the hand I'm holdin'
When the heavens open
'Cause you are golden.
More Lady Antebellum
This ones for you Sweetpea
Tuesday, November 19, 2013
An interesting read
TOXIC RELATIONSHIPS:
HOW TO RECOGNIZE AND HANDLE THEM
Earth Angels are “nice” people, with big, open hearts, so they can’t see when they’re involved in toxic relationships. They excuse and minimize other people’s behavior: “He didn’t mean to act that way. He was having a bad day.”
Even more toxic is when Earth Angels blame themselves for someone’s harsh behavior: “If I were nicer [or thinner, smarter, richer, etc.], then he’d treat me better.” This is nonsense! Don’t take responsibility for someone’s cruel treatment.
Earth Angels tolerate harsh and even abusive relationships because they’re afraid of being alone, being in the wrong, or being judged. They force themselves to rise above mistreatment by disconnecting from their feelings.
Harsh and Toxic Behavior
When you first meet people, they’re on their best behavior. They’ll agree with you, even if they really don’t. It can take up to two years before you see the real person. That’s why it’s important for Earth Angels to take things slowly in their friendships.
In any relationship, there’s a synergy (energy exchange) between both people. Unless you’re being authentic, you don’t know how well you interact. If you’re both pretending when it comes to your feelings and opinions, and being falsely polite and insincere, there’s no real relationship.
Here are the most common types of toxic relationship behaviors for you to recognize, and how to deal with them in honest and assertive ways that are healthful for you and the other person. These examples give you guidance as to how to assertively handle toxic situations.
Most Earth Angels have been beaten up by life and suffer from low self-esteem and feelings of worthlessness. So they often don’t recognize abusive and toxic patterns in their relationships. Earth Angels don’t know any better than to accept hurtful behavior from others. They deny and excuse such behavior, while secretly suffering in silence. So this list will help you not feel ashamed or alone in your relationship patterns, and also give you a way out.
By pointing out these harsh relationship patterns, we’re not judging the individuals involved. Many times, Earth Angels are so wary of being judgmental that they overdo acceptance. This isn’t about judging another person; it’s about being aware of the dynamics within the relationship.
Sometimes, style differences between you and the other person cause the harsh energy of the relationship. For example: You’re quiet and gentle, and he’s loud and rough. You’re spontaneous and go with the flow, but she’s all about planning and organizing. Through awareness and honesty, style differences can be negotiated harmoniously if each person is willing to compromise and have compassion for the other person’s style. However, where abuse is involved, the relationship needs to end and healing needs to begin.
This list is to open your eyes and help you to be aware of your honest feelings when you’re with other people. It also gives you some suggestions for assertive ways to manage these various scenarios. There’s no implication that you need to leave or abandon anyone; however, you do need to take care of yourself and any children affected by your being in a toxic relationship.
Interrupting
The person who continually interrupts you doesn’t really care what you have to say. Interrupters are people who are anxious to hear the sound of their own voice, and who are convinced that they provide the most interesting and accurate conversation. Very often, the interrupter is someone who’s abusing caffeine or other stimulants, making him or her anxious and hyperactive.
— How this relationship affects you: If you’re in a relationship with an interrupter, you begin to talk really fast to get your words in before they can be interrupted. You start to feel anxious whenever the interrupter initiates conversation with you.
— How to handle this: Assertive Earth Angels will stop someone the first time he or she interrupts them and say “Excuse me, I wasn’t finished talking” in a very calm and peaceful way. If you touch the person’s arm while saying this sentence, the impact is even stronger. Remember that you’re helping the other person become aware of a habit that’s likely blocking him or her in all other relationships, personal and business. You’re teaching how to be a better communicator.
Correcting
Correcting is similar to interrupting, except worse. People who are prone to this behavior not only interrupt you, but also “correct” what you’ve been saying. They may point out errors in your grammar or pronunciation, like your old English teacher. Or they may tell you much more about the topic you’re discussing.
While it’s great to learn new facts and proper grammar, it’s this person’s continual correcting that becomes tiring. No one likes to feel small or stupid, and that’s how you feel when you’re with this person. You always feel “one-down” from him or her. Some people engage in correcting behavior because that’s how they show that they care about and love you. They believe that by “improving” you, they’re helping you. Other times, correctors conduct this behavior out of an unconscious habit.
— How this relationship affects you: Anxiety around a corrector is a normal response. You walk on eggshells, worried about the next mistake you’ll make. If you live with one, it will affect your self-esteem. You may doubt your own intelligence, and give your power away to the other person, because you believe that you can’t do anything right.
— How to handle this: As an assertive Earth Angel Dreams, you must handle these situations head-on, so you’ll need to tell the corrector how you honestly feel. By giving candid feedback to the corrector, you help him or her develop better relationships. If his or her correcting style annoys you, it annoys everyone else, too. So, the next time this person corrects you, take a deep breath, and say: “Sometimes I feel that you’re more my teacher than my friend. And while I appreciate you adding to my body of knowledge, I’d prefer to have conversations where it’s just us sharing our feelings instead of you trying to teach me.”
One-upmanship
People who one-up others have done everything better than you, on a larger scale, and they want to tell you about it! Any story that you relate will be scarcely digested before it is regurgitated in a more grandiose version—starring them. Such people only listen enough to hear the topic of discussion so that they can immediately go to their memory banks and extract their experience of that situation, which was over-the-top amazing.
They’re so insecure and desperate for attention and approval that they step all over other people’s spotlight to grab it back for themselves.
— How this relationship affects you: Your body exhibits signs of tension and resentment. You feel unheard and unappreciated. In this sort of relationship, you feel lonely because it’s a one-sided conversation at all times. You also feel disappointed that the other person won’t share in your excitement or other emotions concerning the experiences you’re relaying.
— How to handle this: Such people have no idea that they’re upsetting, annoying, or pushing others away with their superiority complex. They’re extremely lonely and wonder why people aren’t impressed with their accomplishments. They believe that if people are impressed, they’ll be loved and valued. Once you understand the depth of such a person’s loneliness and desperation to be loved, an assertive Earth Angel can go from there.
The heart of assertiveness is being honest and taking responsibility for your feelings. So never point the finger and claim that the other person is making you angry. It’s his or her behavior that’s triggering you. Let the one-upper know that you value and admire him or her, as long as that’s sincerely how you feel. You don’t offer these compliments unless you really believe them, or else you’re manipulating and trying to control the other person’s reaction to you, which is dysfunctional and dishonest.
Explain that you’d love to share your own experience and enjoy the details, without turning the tables to talk about his or her experience right away. Tell the person that sharing experiences is like enjoying a really good meal, and you want to savor each course one at a time.
***
Be very clear with other people about your expectations for the relationship ahead of time. Your ego will argue with you, saying you can’t tell others the truth or they won’t like you. The real truth is that unless you speak your truth, you’re nothing but an empty shell to other people. When you treat yourself with self-respect, other people respect you.
*** ***
To read about more types of toxic relationships and how to handle them in healthful and assertive ways, instantly download Doreen’s new book, “Assertiveness for Earth Angels” at the Kindle Store at:
http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B00F8KX59A/ref=s9_simh_gw_p351_d2_i1?pf_rd_m=ATVPDKIKX0DER&pf_rd_s=center-5&pf_rd_r=1V7EKGZMS4M003ZKDGXV&pf_rd_t=101&pf_rd_p=1630072182&pf_rd_i=507846
HOW TO RECOGNIZE AND HANDLE THEM
Earth Angels are “nice” people, with big, open hearts, so they can’t see when they’re involved in toxic relationships. They excuse and minimize other people’s behavior: “He didn’t mean to act that way. He was having a bad day.”
Even more toxic is when Earth Angels blame themselves for someone’s harsh behavior: “If I were nicer [or thinner, smarter, richer, etc.], then he’d treat me better.” This is nonsense! Don’t take responsibility for someone’s cruel treatment.
Earth Angels tolerate harsh and even abusive relationships because they’re afraid of being alone, being in the wrong, or being judged. They force themselves to rise above mistreatment by disconnecting from their feelings.
Harsh and Toxic Behavior
When you first meet people, they’re on their best behavior. They’ll agree with you, even if they really don’t. It can take up to two years before you see the real person. That’s why it’s important for Earth Angels to take things slowly in their friendships.
In any relationship, there’s a synergy (energy exchange) between both people. Unless you’re being authentic, you don’t know how well you interact. If you’re both pretending when it comes to your feelings and opinions, and being falsely polite and insincere, there’s no real relationship.
Here are the most common types of toxic relationship behaviors for you to recognize, and how to deal with them in honest and assertive ways that are healthful for you and the other person. These examples give you guidance as to how to assertively handle toxic situations.
Most Earth Angels have been beaten up by life and suffer from low self-esteem and feelings of worthlessness. So they often don’t recognize abusive and toxic patterns in their relationships. Earth Angels don’t know any better than to accept hurtful behavior from others. They deny and excuse such behavior, while secretly suffering in silence. So this list will help you not feel ashamed or alone in your relationship patterns, and also give you a way out.
By pointing out these harsh relationship patterns, we’re not judging the individuals involved. Many times, Earth Angels are so wary of being judgmental that they overdo acceptance. This isn’t about judging another person; it’s about being aware of the dynamics within the relationship.
Sometimes, style differences between you and the other person cause the harsh energy of the relationship. For example: You’re quiet and gentle, and he’s loud and rough. You’re spontaneous and go with the flow, but she’s all about planning and organizing. Through awareness and honesty, style differences can be negotiated harmoniously if each person is willing to compromise and have compassion for the other person’s style. However, where abuse is involved, the relationship needs to end and healing needs to begin.
This list is to open your eyes and help you to be aware of your honest feelings when you’re with other people. It also gives you some suggestions for assertive ways to manage these various scenarios. There’s no implication that you need to leave or abandon anyone; however, you do need to take care of yourself and any children affected by your being in a toxic relationship.
Interrupting
The person who continually interrupts you doesn’t really care what you have to say. Interrupters are people who are anxious to hear the sound of their own voice, and who are convinced that they provide the most interesting and accurate conversation. Very often, the interrupter is someone who’s abusing caffeine or other stimulants, making him or her anxious and hyperactive.
— How this relationship affects you: If you’re in a relationship with an interrupter, you begin to talk really fast to get your words in before they can be interrupted. You start to feel anxious whenever the interrupter initiates conversation with you.
— How to handle this: Assertive Earth Angels will stop someone the first time he or she interrupts them and say “Excuse me, I wasn’t finished talking” in a very calm and peaceful way. If you touch the person’s arm while saying this sentence, the impact is even stronger. Remember that you’re helping the other person become aware of a habit that’s likely blocking him or her in all other relationships, personal and business. You’re teaching how to be a better communicator.
Correcting
Correcting is similar to interrupting, except worse. People who are prone to this behavior not only interrupt you, but also “correct” what you’ve been saying. They may point out errors in your grammar or pronunciation, like your old English teacher. Or they may tell you much more about the topic you’re discussing.
While it’s great to learn new facts and proper grammar, it’s this person’s continual correcting that becomes tiring. No one likes to feel small or stupid, and that’s how you feel when you’re with this person. You always feel “one-down” from him or her. Some people engage in correcting behavior because that’s how they show that they care about and love you. They believe that by “improving” you, they’re helping you. Other times, correctors conduct this behavior out of an unconscious habit.
— How this relationship affects you: Anxiety around a corrector is a normal response. You walk on eggshells, worried about the next mistake you’ll make. If you live with one, it will affect your self-esteem. You may doubt your own intelligence, and give your power away to the other person, because you believe that you can’t do anything right.
— How to handle this: As an assertive Earth Angel Dreams, you must handle these situations head-on, so you’ll need to tell the corrector how you honestly feel. By giving candid feedback to the corrector, you help him or her develop better relationships. If his or her correcting style annoys you, it annoys everyone else, too. So, the next time this person corrects you, take a deep breath, and say: “Sometimes I feel that you’re more my teacher than my friend. And while I appreciate you adding to my body of knowledge, I’d prefer to have conversations where it’s just us sharing our feelings instead of you trying to teach me.”
One-upmanship
People who one-up others have done everything better than you, on a larger scale, and they want to tell you about it! Any story that you relate will be scarcely digested before it is regurgitated in a more grandiose version—starring them. Such people only listen enough to hear the topic of discussion so that they can immediately go to their memory banks and extract their experience of that situation, which was over-the-top amazing.
They’re so insecure and desperate for attention and approval that they step all over other people’s spotlight to grab it back for themselves.
— How this relationship affects you: Your body exhibits signs of tension and resentment. You feel unheard and unappreciated. In this sort of relationship, you feel lonely because it’s a one-sided conversation at all times. You also feel disappointed that the other person won’t share in your excitement or other emotions concerning the experiences you’re relaying.
— How to handle this: Such people have no idea that they’re upsetting, annoying, or pushing others away with their superiority complex. They’re extremely lonely and wonder why people aren’t impressed with their accomplishments. They believe that if people are impressed, they’ll be loved and valued. Once you understand the depth of such a person’s loneliness and desperation to be loved, an assertive Earth Angel can go from there.
The heart of assertiveness is being honest and taking responsibility for your feelings. So never point the finger and claim that the other person is making you angry. It’s his or her behavior that’s triggering you. Let the one-upper know that you value and admire him or her, as long as that’s sincerely how you feel. You don’t offer these compliments unless you really believe them, or else you’re manipulating and trying to control the other person’s reaction to you, which is dysfunctional and dishonest.
Explain that you’d love to share your own experience and enjoy the details, without turning the tables to talk about his or her experience right away. Tell the person that sharing experiences is like enjoying a really good meal, and you want to savor each course one at a time.
***
Be very clear with other people about your expectations for the relationship ahead of time. Your ego will argue with you, saying you can’t tell others the truth or they won’t like you. The real truth is that unless you speak your truth, you’re nothing but an empty shell to other people. When you treat yourself with self-respect, other people respect you.
*** ***
To read about more types of toxic relationships and how to handle them in healthful and assertive ways, instantly download Doreen’s new book, “Assertiveness for Earth Angels” at the Kindle Store at:
http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B00F8KX59A/ref=s9_simh_gw_p351_d2_i1?pf_rd_m=ATVPDKIKX0DER&pf_rd_s=center-5&pf_rd_r=1V7EKGZMS4M003ZKDGXV&pf_rd_t=101&pf_rd_p=1630072182&pf_rd_i=507846
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
Saturday, November 2, 2013
More Lyrics
I can see the pain living in
your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have so much more
I can feel your heart and I sympathize
And I'll never criticize all you've ever meant to my life
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but good-bye
You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure I'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to try
Though it's gonna hurt us both
There's no other way than to say good-bye
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have so much more
I can feel your heart and I sympathize
And I'll never criticize all you've ever meant to my life
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but good-bye
You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure I'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to try
Though it's gonna hurt us both
There's no other way than to say good-bye
Monday, October 28, 2013
Sunday, October 27, 2013
Thursday, October 10, 2013
Somewhere love remains
Here we go again
Sitting on the edge of leaving
You don’t have to speak
I can see it in your eyes
I know you too well
You know I can tell your hiding
Something inside
Baby just breathe in
Breathe out
Before you turn around
Just slow down
Think of all the love we’ve made
If we give it just one more try
Maybe we could stop this goodbye
I know through all this pain
Somehow somewhere love remains
You say don’t walk away
But baby give me one good reason
More than just a line
You better make it count this time
You told me but you never really showed me
That I’m worth the fight
Oh I’m worth the fight
Baby just breathe in
Breathe out
Before you turn around
Just slow down
Think of all the love we’ve made
If we give it just one more try
Maybe we could stop this goodbye
I know through all this pain
Somehow somewhere love remains
Love takes time to build its defenses
And trust takes time to tear down those fences
And love remains that’s stronger than ever before
So don’t walk out that door
I don’t wanna hurt anymore
Baby just breathe in
Breathe out
The only time for love is right now
Forgive all of the mistakes we’ve made
If we give it just one more try
Maybe we could stop this goodbye
Through the fire and rain
Somehow somewhere
I know through this pain
Somehow somewhere love remains
So baby just breathe in
Breathe out
I never wanted to give up this fight
What if we give it baby one more try?
Let’s try
This time
Baby this time
Sitting on the edge of leaving
You don’t have to speak
I can see it in your eyes
I know you too well
You know I can tell your hiding
Something inside
Baby just breathe in
Breathe out
Before you turn around
Just slow down
Think of all the love we’ve made
If we give it just one more try
Maybe we could stop this goodbye
I know through all this pain
Somehow somewhere love remains
You say don’t walk away
But baby give me one good reason
More than just a line
You better make it count this time
You told me but you never really showed me
That I’m worth the fight
Oh I’m worth the fight
Baby just breathe in
Breathe out
Before you turn around
Just slow down
Think of all the love we’ve made
If we give it just one more try
Maybe we could stop this goodbye
I know through all this pain
Somehow somewhere love remains
Love takes time to build its defenses
And trust takes time to tear down those fences
And love remains that’s stronger than ever before
So don’t walk out that door
I don’t wanna hurt anymore
Baby just breathe in
Breathe out
The only time for love is right now
Forgive all of the mistakes we’ve made
If we give it just one more try
Maybe we could stop this goodbye
Through the fire and rain
Somehow somewhere
I know through this pain
Somehow somewhere love remains
So baby just breathe in
Breathe out
I never wanted to give up this fight
What if we give it baby one more try?
Let’s try
This time
Baby this time
Saturday, October 5, 2013
Tuesday, September 17, 2013
You said that you love me
Thick skin, Soft touch,
Heart of gold but it's na-na-na-not
enough,
Forgiving arms, The higher road,
Working hard but it's na-na-na-not
enough,
You say, I'm not good enough, I'm not
good enough
But what you really mean is,
You're not good enough, you're not good
enough
You can't deliver so you turn it around
You didn't let me down, you didn't tear
me apart
You just opened my eyes, while breaking
my heart
You didn't do it for me
I'm not as dumb as you think,
You just made me cry
While claiming that you love me
You love me, you love me
You said you loved me but that I
I'm not good enough, I'm not good enough
Stronghold, but fun ride,
But rollercoasters aren't just
na-na-na-not enough,
I keep it in, you wear me out,
This kind of love is na-na-na-not enough,
Said I'm just a sinking ship, I'm just a
sinking ship,
But what that really means,
Is you can't handle this, you can't
handle this,
You couldn't win so you turn it around...
You didn't let me down, you didn't tear
me apart
You just opened my eyes, while breaking
my heart
You didn't do it for me
I'm not as dumb as you think,
You just made me cry
While claiming that you love me
You love me, you love me
You said you loved me but that
I'm not good enough, I'm not good enough
Your love feels different
It's like a blow to the head with your
compliments.
Your love hurts deeper
It's like a brick in the sea and I'm
drowning with it
You didn't let me down, you didn't tear
me apart
You just opened my eyes, while breaking
my heart
You didn't do it for me
I'm not as dumb as you think,
You just made me cry
While claiming that you love me
You love me, you love me
You said you loved me but that I
I'm not good enough, I'm not good enough
So understand it means nothing when you
say you love me
When you say you love me
When you say you love me
You love me, you love me
You didn't let me down, you didn't tear
me apart
You just opened my eyes, while breaking
my heart
You didn't do it for me
I'm not as dumb as you think,
You just made me cry
While claiming that you love me
You love me, you love me
You said you loved me but that I
I'm not good enough, I'm not good enough
Tuesday, September 10, 2013
Forgive me
"Forgive Me"
Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what I
said
But I didn't mean to
hurt you
I heard the words come
out
I felt that I would
die
It hurt so much to
hurt you
Then you look at me
You're not shouting
anymore
You're silently broken
I'd give anything now
to kill those words
for you
Each time I say
something
I regret I cry
"I don't want to lose you."
But somehow I know
that you will never leave me, yeah.
'Cause you were made
for me
Somehow I'll make you
see
How happy you make me
I can't live this life
Without you by my side
I need you to survive
So stay with me
You look in my eyes
and
I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry.
And you forgive me
again
You're my one true
friend
And I never meant to
hurt you
Monday, August 26, 2013
Friday, August 16, 2013
Monday, August 12, 2013
Saturday, August 3, 2013
Thursday, August 1, 2013
Monday, July 15, 2013
4 things
Four things a man must learn to do
If he would make his record true
To think without confusion clearly
To love his fellow man sincerely
To act from honest motives purely
To trust the laws of nature securely
Author unknown
Thursday, July 4, 2013
What can I say .........................
Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking.
When there are clouds in the skyyou'll get by.
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining
throughFor you.
Light up your face with gladness,
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying.
You'll find that life is still worthwhile-
If you just smile.
Tuesday, June 25, 2013
Goodbye Graham
Your spirit and your heart will be missed more than you know
Another Angel gone to soon
Monday, June 24, 2013
Made me cry today
It's been a really tough day, feels like I'm breaking inside again watching someone I love more than I ever imagined possible hurt and then I heard this, it's not even a particularly good song but the words broke the dam walls and I've been crying my eyes out since.
My heart is breaking and there is nothing I can do that wont make it worse for the people I love the most but maybe one of these days
Used to chase that boy home from school
We called him freckled faced red headed fool
He was different he wasn't cool like me
Sticks and stones didn't break any bones
Bet we never left well enough alone
And one day he ran away from home you see
And I passed him as he walked away
And in his eyes I heard him say
"One of these days you're gonna love me
You'll sit down by yourself and think
About the times you pushed and shoved me
And what good friends we might've been
And then you're gonna sigh a little
Maybe even cry a little but
One of these days you're gonna love me"
Patty Sue was a small town beauty
I took one look at her and had to pull her to me
Lord knows she should've seen right through me
When I promised her the world
But at seventeen, you only want one thing
I left her standin' there with my high school ring
Innocent tears in the pourin' rain
As I walked away
And I still see her in my dreams
And to this day she's whispering
"One of these days you're gonna love me
You'll sit down by yourself and think
About the time you turned from me
And what good friends we might've been
And then you're gonna sigh a little
Maybe even cry a little but
One of these days you're gonna love me"
Now everybody stands up
The congregation sings
It's a song of sweet forgiveness
And as the chorus rings
The wind blows clear my memory
The pages start to turn
Then suddenly I'm singin'
The moment that I learn
One of these days I'm gonna love me
And feel the joy of sweet release
One of these days, I'll rise above me
And at last I'll find some peace
Then I'm gonna smile a little
Maybe even laugh a little but
One of these days I'm gonna love me
We called him freckled faced red headed fool
He was different he wasn't cool like me
Sticks and stones didn't break any bones
Bet we never left well enough alone
And one day he ran away from home you see
And I passed him as he walked away
And in his eyes I heard him say
"One of these days you're gonna love me
You'll sit down by yourself and think
About the times you pushed and shoved me
And what good friends we might've been
And then you're gonna sigh a little
Maybe even cry a little but
One of these days you're gonna love me"
Patty Sue was a small town beauty
I took one look at her and had to pull her to me
Lord knows she should've seen right through me
When I promised her the world
But at seventeen, you only want one thing
I left her standin' there with my high school ring
Innocent tears in the pourin' rain
As I walked away
And I still see her in my dreams
And to this day she's whispering
"One of these days you're gonna love me
You'll sit down by yourself and think
About the time you turned from me
And what good friends we might've been
And then you're gonna sigh a little
Maybe even cry a little but
One of these days you're gonna love me"
Now everybody stands up
The congregation sings
It's a song of sweet forgiveness
And as the chorus rings
The wind blows clear my memory
The pages start to turn
Then suddenly I'm singin'
The moment that I learn
One of these days I'm gonna love me
And feel the joy of sweet release
One of these days, I'll rise above me
And at last I'll find some peace
Then I'm gonna smile a little
Maybe even laugh a little but
One of these days I'm gonna love me
Thursday, June 20, 2013
Forever Seventeen
It's been a really long time since I heard a song that spoke to me so eloquently the moment I heard it.
Thank you Tim McGraw for summing it up and saying it SO well.
Let's be honest, you're not flawless
But you're as close as anything I've seen
You're not the woman you envisioned
But your life is not a broken time machine
No, it's not that bad
You know it's really not that bad
A little midnight chardonnay
Smooth the edges off the day
A little taste of maryjane
Makes you feel young again
oh those years around your eyes
Always take you by surprise
You've been living in a dream
Forever seventeen
A reckless lover, a father figure
You search for both in every man you meet
You're not a mother and sometimes you wonder
If a son or daughter just might make you feel complete
But no, you don't need someone else
You know it's hard enough to learn to love yourself
A little midnight chardonnay
Smooth the edges off the day
A little taste of maryjane
Makes you feel young again
oh, those years around your eyes
Always take you by surprise
You've been living in a dream
Forever seventeen
A little midnight chardonnay
Smooth the edges off the day
A little taste of maryjane
Makes you feel young again
oh, those years around your eyes
Always take you by surprise
You've been living in a dream
Forever seventeen
Thank you Tim McGraw for summing it up and saying it SO well.
Let's be honest, you're not flawless
But you're as close as anything I've seen
You're not the woman you envisioned
But your life is not a broken time machine
No, it's not that bad
You know it's really not that bad
A little midnight chardonnay
Smooth the edges off the day
A little taste of maryjane
Makes you feel young again
oh those years around your eyes
Always take you by surprise
You've been living in a dream
Forever seventeen
A reckless lover, a father figure
You search for both in every man you meet
You're not a mother and sometimes you wonder
If a son or daughter just might make you feel complete
But no, you don't need someone else
You know it's hard enough to learn to love yourself
A little midnight chardonnay
Smooth the edges off the day
A little taste of maryjane
Makes you feel young again
oh, those years around your eyes
Always take you by surprise
You've been living in a dream
Forever seventeen
A little midnight chardonnay
Smooth the edges off the day
A little taste of maryjane
Makes you feel young again
oh, those years around your eyes
Always take you by surprise
You've been living in a dream
Forever seventeen
Thursday, June 13, 2013
Friday, June 7, 2013
Wednesday, June 5, 2013
*sigh*
Sunday, May 26, 2013
Thursday, May 23, 2013
Funeral Blues
Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.
Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.
Scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.
He was my North, my South, my East and West.
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever; I was wrong.
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever; I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.
-- W. H. Auden
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Monday, May 13, 2013
Friday, May 10, 2013
Thursday, May 9, 2013
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
My sentiments as well
Although I don't believe there is anything such as a perfect anything...................
Friday, May 3, 2013
Lost
Thursday, May 2, 2013
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
Dark Side
There's a place that I know
It's not pretty there and few have ever gone
If I show it to you now
Will it make you run away
Or will you stay
Even if it hurts
Even if I try to push you out
Will you return?
And remind me who I really am
Please remind me who I really am
Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?
Like a diamond
From black dust
It's hard to know
It can become
If you give up
So don't give up on me
Please remind me who I really am
Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?
Don't run away
Don't run away
Just tell me that you will stay
Promise me you will stay
Don't run away
Don't run away
Just promise me you will stay
Promise me you will stay
Will you love me? Ohh
Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?
It's not pretty there and few have ever gone
If I show it to you now
Will it make you run away
Or will you stay
Even if it hurts
Even if I try to push you out
Will you return?
And remind me who I really am
Please remind me who I really am
Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?
Like a diamond
From black dust
It's hard to know
It can become
If you give up
So don't give up on me
Please remind me who I really am
Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?
Don't run away
Don't run away
Just tell me that you will stay
Promise me you will stay
Don't run away
Don't run away
Just promise me you will stay
Promise me you will stay
Will you love me? Ohh
Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
Belief (Gavin Degraw)
Belief, makes
things real.
Makes things feel, feel alright.
Belief, makes things true.
Things like you, you and I.
Tonight, you
arrested my mind.
When you came to my defense.
With a knife in the shape of your mouth,
in the form of your body, with the wrath of a
god.
Oh, you stood by me, Belief
Builds from
scratch.
Doesn't have to relax, it doesn't need space.
Long live the queen and I'll be the king.
In the collar of grace.
Oh, tonight,
you arrested my mind.
When you came to my defense.
With a knife in the shape of your mouth,
in the form of your body, with the wrath of a
god.
Oh, you stood by me, belief.
I'm gonna yell
it from the rooftops.
I'll wear a sign on my chest.
That's the least I can do, it's the least I
can do.
Tonight, you
arrested my mind.
When you came to my defense.
With a knife, in the shape of your mouth,
in the form of your body, with the wrath of a
god.
Oh, you stood by me.
And I'll stand by my belief.
I will stand by
mine………….
belief...
like you stood
by me, I wil l stand by mine, stand by my belief...
Thursday, April 11, 2013
Trying very hard to
I made a choice that was supposed to improve my life, to make things better for everyone and all it's done is make me feel more alone than ever. Some of the people I was hoping to spend more time with have pushed me so far away that I no longer even qualify for 5 mins of their time, hell I can't even sit down and have a conversation with them. No wonder they don't know I'm broken inside and that I'm sitting with a year long commitment and no way way to meet it because it looks like my bright idea has just cost me my job. So I'm alone with nobody to talk to and no way of fixing this but what does it matter, I only mean anything to anyone when they need something from me anyway.
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
You haven't seen the last of me
Feeling broken
Barely holding on
But there's just something so strong
Somewhere inside me
And I am down but I'll get up again
Don't count me out just yet
I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I'll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
You haven't seen the last of me
You haven't seen the last of me
They can say that
I won't stay around
But I'm gonna stand my ground
You're not gonna stop me
You don't know me
You don't know who I am
Don't count me out so fast
I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I'll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
You haven't seen the last of me
There will be no fade out
This is not the end
I'm down now
But I'll be standing tall again
Times are hard but
I was built tough
I'm gonna show you all what I'm made of
I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed right past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I'll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
I am far from over
You haven't seen the last of me
No no
I'm not going nowhere
I'm staying right here
Oh no
You won't see me fade out
I'm not taking my bow
Can't stop me
It's not the end
You haven't seen the last of me
Oh no
You haven't seen the last of me
You haven't seen the last of me
Barely holding on
But there's just something so strong
Somewhere inside me
And I am down but I'll get up again
Don't count me out just yet
I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I'll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
You haven't seen the last of me
You haven't seen the last of me
They can say that
I won't stay around
But I'm gonna stand my ground
You're not gonna stop me
You don't know me
You don't know who I am
Don't count me out so fast
I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I'll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
You haven't seen the last of me
There will be no fade out
This is not the end
I'm down now
But I'll be standing tall again
Times are hard but
I was built tough
I'm gonna show you all what I'm made of
I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed right past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I'll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
I am far from over
You haven't seen the last of me
No no
I'm not going nowhere
I'm staying right here
Oh no
You won't see me fade out
I'm not taking my bow
Can't stop me
It's not the end
You haven't seen the last of me
Oh no
You haven't seen the last of me
You haven't seen the last of me
Monday, March 18, 2013
Sunday, March 17, 2013
Saturday, March 16, 2013
Tuesday, March 12, 2013
Thank you....................
I've had a lot of big dreams
I've made a lot of bad moves
I know you could walk away
But you never do
I've met a lot of cold hearts
I've learned to smile and deceive
I know I'm hard to be around
But you never leave
I'm not easy to understand
But you hold out your hand
And you say you love me
Just as I am
You always treat me
The best that you can
You say you want me, need me
Love me, baby
Just as I am, just as I am
I've made a lot of heartaches
I've found a lot of closed doors
When all the others turn away
You love me more
You love me more
I'm not easy to understand
But you hold out your hand
And you say you love me
Just as I am
You always treat me
The best that you can
You say you want me, need me
Love me, baby
Just as I am, just as I am
I want to love forever
To keep our world together
And be the best that I can be
Baby, every time the world caves in on me
And you say you love me
Just as I am
You always treat me
The best that you can
You say you want me, need me
Love me, baby
Just as I am, just as I am
I've made a lot of bad moves
I know you could walk away
But you never do
I've met a lot of cold hearts
I've learned to smile and deceive
I know I'm hard to be around
But you never leave
I'm not easy to understand
But you hold out your hand
And you say you love me
Just as I am
You always treat me
The best that you can
You say you want me, need me
Love me, baby
Just as I am, just as I am
I've made a lot of heartaches
I've found a lot of closed doors
When all the others turn away
You love me more
You love me more
I'm not easy to understand
But you hold out your hand
And you say you love me
Just as I am
You always treat me
The best that you can
You say you want me, need me
Love me, baby
Just as I am, just as I am
I want to love forever
To keep our world together
And be the best that I can be
Baby, every time the world caves in on me
And you say you love me
Just as I am
You always treat me
The best that you can
You say you want me, need me
Love me, baby
Just as I am, just as I am
Monday, March 11, 2013
Trying
very hard to be bright and cheerful. I have so much to look forward to on my new adventure.
I'm just so bloody lost though.
It's days like today that I wish that someone would see me and actually care enough to try and comfort me even if it was only for a moment.
I'm just so bloody lost though.
It's days like today that I wish that someone would see me and actually care enough to try and comfort me even if it was only for a moment.
Saturday, March 9, 2013
Friday, March 8, 2013
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
Monday, March 4, 2013
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