A girl can only take so much you know.

From now nobody will EVER get close enough to hurt or disappoint me
again.

I no longer have any interest in caring, giving a damn or letting
myself be conned into believing

anyone gives a rat’s ass whether I’m alive or not.

From now on I’m the only one that matters, the rest of you, it’s my
space and you can take yourselves and your fake give a damn and leave, I have
no interest in you.

Scars

I can't pretend that I don't see you
I can't pretend I don't wanna hold you
When you're around
When you're around

I can't say that nothing was I
But we know if I looked in your eyes
I'd break down

If I could for just one night
To be with you
To make it right
For what we were
And what we are
It's hidden in the scars
If I could to take you there
I won't let go
And this I swear
You won't have to wonder
What we are
You won't have to ever
To look so far
Hidden in the scars
It's hidden in the scars

If I told you that I love you
But I'm doing alright without you
It'd be a lie
But I could try

I run a thousand miles believe me
You're the only one I want to free me
To break down

If I could for just one night
To be with you
I'd make it right
For what we were
And what we are
It's hidden in the scars
If I could to take you there
I won't let go
And this I swear
You won't have to wonder
What we are
You won't have to ever
To look so far
It's in the scars

Yeah I'd tell you all my secrets
All the ones I've kept inside
And I'll give you all the reasons
That you faded from my life
I won't let you go
Baby come here close
I won't let you walk away

If I could for just one night
To be with you
To make it right
For what we were
And what we are
It's hidden in the scars
If I could to take you there
I won't let go
Baby this I swear
You won't have to wonder
What we are
You won't have to ever
To look so far
Hidden in the scars
It's written in the scars
Hidden in the scars
Yeah Yeah

I can't pretend that I don't see you
I can't pretend I don't wanna hold you
When you're around

Need I say more?????????

Nothing to say

Just wish I could find a way to stop the tears that have started because I'm tied up in such knots again. Wish I had someone to talk to who would actually understand what I'm feeling, but ja it's just me again so I guess I'm going t have to get used to talking to myself and being confused and miserable. *shrug* Should have known it would just be more of the same

FYI

Time to ...........

:o)

They stood up for love

Naked lovers feel the blood
beneath their veins
Electric nerves communicate
With tiny explosions through our brains
Who is this energy that never left or came?
Give rise to passion the only glory
Of this human story

I give my heart and soul to the one

We spend all of our lives goin' out of our mind
Lookin' back to our birth, forward to our demise
Even scientists say, everything is just light
Not created, destroyed but eternally bright
Masters in every time lord in every place

Those who stood up for love down in spite of the hate
In spite of the hate

Who put the flower in the barrel of that gun?
Who lit the candle, started the fire,
Burnt down the fortress, the throne?
Who could house all the refugees in a single shack
Or a lowly bungalow?
Who lives in a different dimension, free from the
Struggles we know?

I give my heart and soul to the one

We spend all of our lives goin' out of our mind
Lookin' back to our birth, forward to our demise
Even scientists say everything is just light
Not created, destroyed but eternally bright
Masters in everytime lord in every place
Those who stood up for love down in spite of the hate
We spend all of our lives goin’ out of our mind
They live in the light

We made it to the moon
But we can't make it home
Waitin’ on a rescue that never comes
Made it to the moon
But we can't make it home
Maybe home is where the heart is given up
To the one, to the one

We spend all of our lives goin' out of our mind
Lookin' back to our birth, forward to our demise
We spend all of our lives goin' out of our mind
They live, they

They stood up for love
Stood up for love
Stood up for love
They stood up for love
Stood up for love
Stood up for love

We spend all of our lives goin' out of our mind
Masters in everytime
We spend all of our lives goin' out of our mind
Stood up for love

And so will I ALWAYS

Over the hills and far away

He says he'll return one day....................

Sadness

http://news.yahoo.com/blogs/upshot/encyclopaedia-britannica-ends-print-run-005141357.html

Above is a link to probably the saddest thing I've ever read.
What does it say about us as humans when we no longer have the need
for actual physical books and learning..............

For me some of my fondest memories will always be sitting in the reference section
of the library as a child and even as a teen being transported to far away lands and
historical moments as I paged through the Encyclopedia Britannica.

Enjoying the silence, the smell and the escape of the library was always my safe place
and thanks to technology I have a sadness in the bottom of my stomach as I sense the
end of the physical library wont be long in following one of the icons of my youth and
the last 245 years for that matter.

SO true

Mmmmm radical concept that my parents had mastered

Stuff

Loads of stuff going on, feeling to many things.

The only thing I'm sure of, well that I'm not sure of anything anymore.

Except maybe the above

Yes you are

And so am I btw