Friday, February 24, 2012

Monday, February 20, 2012

Friday, February 17, 2012

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Monday, February 13, 2012

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Never been to me

Been listening to 2 or 3 very odd songs that I'm identifying with really strongly for some reason since Saturday. Not sure what to make of them or their significance given my state of mind but I've always been really fond of this one so here are the lyrics :o/

Never been to me
Charlene


Hey lady, you lady, cursing at your life
You're a discontented mother and a regimented wife
I've no doubt you dream about the things you'll never do
But, I wish someone had talked to me
Like I wanna talk to you.....

Oh, I've been to Georgia and California and anywhere I could run
I took the hand of a preacher man and we made love in the sun
But I ran out of places and friendly faces because I had to be free
I've been to paradise but I've never been to me

Please lady, please lady, don't just walk away
'Cause I have this need to tell you why I'm all alone today
I can see so much of me still living in your eyes
Won't you share a part of a weary heart that has lived million lies....

Oh, I've been to Niece and the Isle of Greece while I've sipped champagne on a yacht
I've moved like Harlow in Monte Carlo and showed 'em what I've got
I've been undressed by kings and I've seen some things that a woman ain't supposed to see
I've been to paradise, but I've never been to me

Hey, you know what paradise is?
It's a lie, a fantasy we create about people and places as we'd like them to be
But you know what truth is?
It's that little baby you're holding, it's that man you fought with this morning
The same one you're going to make love with tonight
That's truth, that's love......

Sometimes I've been to crying for unborn children that might have made me complete
But I took the sweet life, I never knew I'd be bitter from the sweet
I've spent my life exploring the subtle whoring that costs too much to be free
Hey lady......
I've been to paradise, (I've been to paradise)
But I've never been to me

(I've been to Georgia and California, and anywhere I could run)
I've been to paradise, never been to me
(I've been to Neice and the isle of Greece while I've sipped champagne on a yacht)
I've been to paradise, never been to me
(I've been to cryin' for unborn children that might have made me complete)
I've been to paradise, never been to me
(I've been to Georgia and California, and anywhere I could run)
I've been to paradise, never been to me


Monday, February 6, 2012

Saturday, February 4, 2012

As Daughtry says I think its time I was heading Home


I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.

Well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.

The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, it makes true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.

So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,

Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.

Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
I'm going home. 

Friday, February 3, 2012

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

What do you see when you look in the mirror?

Personally I see the biggest fool in the world.

I keep on letting in the wrong people
I keep on making myself vulnerable and putting myself out there
and all that keeps on happening is I get hurt.
I let people in, I trust them, I see the good in them and what do I get in return?
Nothing but my guts ripped out, my heart stomped on.
They say the definition of insanity is to keep doing the same thing and expecting a different result.
I guess the verdict must be in then.
Not only am I the worlds biggest fool, I'm also insane.

Guess its a good thing I've  finally realised that I'm not meant to have what others have, that for my sins I will spend eternity alone and lonely.

Roll on December 2012 let's hope the Mayans are right because I certainly have nothing or no one left to live for.