Fireworks

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting through the wind, wanting to start again?
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards, one blow from caving in?

Do you ever feel already buried deep?
Six feet under screams but no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
'Cause there's a spark in you?

You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, oh
As you shoot across the sky

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, oh
You're gonna leave 'em falling down

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, oh
As you shoot across the sky

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, oh
You're gonna leave 'em falling down

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, oh
As you shoot across the sky

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, oh
You're gonna leave 'em falling down

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

My new years wish to you

H ours of happy times with friends and family

A bundant time for relaxation

P rosperity and new oppurtunity

P lenty of love when you need it most

Y outhful excitement at lifes simple pleasures

N ights of restful slumber

E vereything you need and deserve

W ishing you happiness and love

Y ears and years of good health

E njoyment and mirth

A ngels to watch over you

R emembrances of a happy year

But MOST of all a year filled with

PEACE & LOVE

Finally,

breaking those chains from the past that have held me back.
From here on out it's upwards towards the stars and those dreams that have eluded me for so long

Be unrealistic for a moment :o)

"We have been taught to believe that

negative equals realistic

and positive equals unrealistic."

Susan Jeffers

*Sigh*

Some people have all the luck, I never even got Garfield :o(

Yes you do,

You get ME

So I'm a little left of center
I'm a little out of tune
Some say I'm paranormal
So I just bend their spoon
Who wants to be ordinary
In a crazy, mixed-up world
I don't care what they're sayin'
As long as I'm your girl

Hey, you are on my side
And they, they just roll their eyes

You get me
When nobody understands
You come and take the chance, baby
You get me
You look inside my wild mind
Never knowing what you'll find
And still you want me all the time
Yeah, you do
Yeah, you get me

So what if I see the sunshine
In the pouring rain
Some people think I'm crazy
But you say it's okay
You've seen my secret garden
Where all of my flowers grow
In my imagination
Anything goes

I, I am all you want
They, they just read me wrong

You get me
When nobody understands
You come and hold my hand, baby
You get me
You look inside my wild mind
Never knowing what you'll find
Still you want me all the time
Yeah, you do
'Cause you get me

Hey, you are on my side
They, they just roll their eyes
Yeah, yeah, yeah

'Cause you get me
When nobody understands
You come and take the chance, baby
You get me
When none of the pieces fit
You make sense of it
You get me
You look inside my wild mind
Never knowing what you'll find
And still I want you all the time
Yeah, I do
'Cause you get me
Yeah, oh, yeah, oh

My sentiments, well almost

Been thinking of you

Please don't keep your heart hidden away

Over mountains and sky blue seas
On great circles will you watch for me?
The sweetest feeling I’ve got inside
I just can’t wait to get lost in your eyes
And all these words that you meant to say
Held in silence day after day
Words of kindness that our poor hearts crave
Please don’t keep them hidden away

Sing it out so I can finally breathe in,
I can take in all the same
Holding out for something i believe in
All I really need today
I want to free your heart
I want to see your heart
Please don’t keep your heart hidden away

You’re a wonder, how bright you shine
A flickering candle in a short lifetime
A secret dreamer that never shows
If no one sees you then nobody knows
And all these words you were meant to say
Held in silence day after day
Words of kindness that our poor hearts crave
Please don't keep them hidden away

Sing it out so I can finally breathe in
I can take in all the same
Reaching out for someone I believe in
All I really need today
I want to feel your love
Will you reveal your love
Please don’t keep your love hidden away

I want to free your heart
I want to see your heart
Please don’t keep your heart hidden away

To you my friend

To all my friends near and far

This season I wish you

The STRENGTH of FAITH

The REALITY of HOPE

The COMFORT of LOVE

The CONTENTMENT of a PEACEFUL HAPPY HEART

Happy Holidays

and for those of you who don't get it

The wisdom and spirit of Christmas

My wish for you

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let not this blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.

Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore, be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams; it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful.

Strive to be happy.


--- Max Ehrmann, 1927

More on Love

Some say love it is a river
that drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razor
that leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love it is a hunger
an endless aching need
I say love it is a flower
and you it's only seed
It's the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking

that never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
who cannot seem to give
and the soul afraid of dying

that never learns to live
When the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter

far beneath the bitter snows
lies the seed
that with the sun's love
in the spring
becomes the rose

No prizes for guessing the name of this one :oP

Love and Friendship

"All love that has not friendship for its base,

is like a mansion built upon the sand."

Ella Wheeler Wilcox

:)

"We can only learn to love by loving."

Iris Murdoch

Limitless Love

Let your love flow outward through the universe,

To its height, its depth, its broad extent,

A limitless love, without hatred or enmity.

Then as you stand or walk,

Sit or lie down,

As long as you are awake,

Strive for this with a one-pointed mind;

Your life will bring heaven to earth.

~Sutta Nipata

Be Kind to those around you

"Kindness in words creates confidence;

kindness in thinking creates profoundness;

kindness in giving creates love."

Lao-Tzu

How Long

Why'd you go and break what's already broken?
I try to take a breath but I'm already choking
How long till this goes away?

I try to remember to forget you
But I break down every time I do
It's left me less than zero
Beat down and bruised

I can't see him with you

Why'd you go and break what's already broken?
I try to take a breath but I'm already choking
'Cause everywhere I look, I can see how you hold him
How long till this goes away?

I can't seem to get my heart over you
'Cause you creep into everything I do
And now I'm dyin' to know
How he touches you

I can't see him with you

Why'd you go and break what's already broken?
I try to take a breath but I'm already choking
'Cause everywhere I look, I can see how you hold him
How long till this goes away? How long till this goes away?

She said, she wants to be friends
I took a big step back
She said, she said, she said, she's sorry
With one finger I said, fuck that

I can tell you're lyin' when your lips move
'Cause of one lie it's not me it's you
It's left me less than zero
Beat down and bruised

I can't see him with you

Why'd you go and break what's already broken?
I try to take a breath but I'm already choking
'Cause everywhere I look, I can see how you hold him
How long till this goes away?

Why'd you go and break what's already broken?
I try to take a breath but I'm already choking
'Cause everywhere I look, I can see how you hold him
How long till this goes away? How long till this goes away?

She said she wants to be friends
I took a big step back
She said, she said, she said, she's sorry
With one finger, with one finger, I said, "Fuck that"

Thank you for reminding me again

The girl who seemed unbreakable

Broke

The girl who seemed so strong

Crumbled

The girl who always laughed it off

Cried

The girl who would never stop trying

Finally

Gave Up

Miss you stax

Yes, the glass is half FULL

Lips of an Angel

I haven't heard this in absolute ages, heard it twice today though.

I'd forgotten why I liked it's words *sigh*

Honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why are you crying? Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And, yes, I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Honey why you calling me so late?

Sunset ................... Sunrise

Though the night be dark and full of despair and pain

The sun will rise and a new day will dawn

Bringing a new life full of new possibilities for love and joy.

Peace and Love

I found this on one of the blogs I read and loved it so I thought I'd post it here as well

Couldn't help but smile when I saw this :)

Smile

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking.
When there are clouds in the sky
you'll get by.

If you smile through your pain and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun shining through
For you.

Light up your face with gladness,
Hide every trace of sadness

Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying.
You'll find that life is still worthwhile-
If you just smile.

Mmmm,

What a perfect start to the day.

I have a feeling that the safest place to be today is going to be curled up on the couch, popcorn and hot choccie on hand with movie or good book.

And no, no prizes for guessing how I intend to spend my day, no mad rush shopping for me :o)

Don't ask just can't get this out of my head tonight

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always some reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh a beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
oh and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight life
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lies
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe
in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

:)

SO many other quotes popped into my head when I saw this not least of which was "You can do it" from some of the Adam Sandler movies. I hope you've all had a masterful Monday and here's to a terriffic Tuesday :)

Keep an open mind and have a happy Monday

"Minds are like parachutes.

They ONLY function when they are OPEN,"

Sir James Dewar

My Secret Life

I saw you this morning.

You were moving so fast.

Can’t seem to loosen my grip

On the past.

And I miss you so much.

There’s no one in sight.

And we’re still making love

In my secret life.

I smile when I’m angry.

I cheat and I lie.

I do what I have to do

To get by.

But I know what is wrong,

And I know what is right.

And I’d die for the truth

In my secret life.

Hold on, hold on, my brother.

My sister, hold on tight.

I finally got my orders.

I’ll be marching through the morning,

Marching through the night,

Moving cross the borders

Of my secret life.

Looked through the paper.

Makes you want to cry.

Nobody cares if the people

Live or die.

And the dealer wants you thinking

That it’s either black or white.

Thank God it’s not that simple

In my secret life.

I bite my lip.

I buy what I’m told:

From the latest hit,

To the wisdom of old.

But I’m always alone.

And my heart is like ice.

And it’s crowded and cold

In my secret life.

*sigh*

You saw me start to believe for the first time

You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter

You are the best thing that's ever been mine

More Sunday morning Zen

“Empty-handed I entered the world

Barefoot I leave it.

My coming, my going –

Two simple happenings

That got entangled.”

~ Kozan Ichikyo

Feeling Sunday Zen

It's been a really strange week for me.

I've gone through the highs of an amazing donation to Toy Run that saved one of our biggest toy distributions from cancellation to finding out we had lost a friend and missing my mom intensly. It was three years ago this week that she passed away and honestly some days are easier than others but this week is never easy, and being completely alone hasn't made it any easier either, but I've survived.

I'm also finaly getting my life back, my brother finally moved the last of his stuff out last night and yes I've been up since the ungodlies, tidying, wiping, dusting, packing away and genrally getting my space back to where it was before he ended up taking it over at the end of September. Also been tripping down memory lane again this morning with some of my old albums.

Yes I'm just rambling this morning, procrastinating really. I've done my clean up and there is no real reason why I shouldn't be starting on a MAJOR work project that needs to be done by Friday, but honestly its a beautiful morning, I have my space back and I'm feeling more like me than I have in quite a while so I think I'll spend a little time enjoying me and just being and maybe later I'll get lucky and we'll have another thunderstorm.

Wish on a shooting star :o)

In a perfect world

"Born Free"

Fast, on a rough road riding
High, through the mountains climbing
twisting, turning further from my home.
Young, like a new moon rising
Fierce, through the rain and lightning
Wandering out into the great unknown.

And I don't want no one to cry.
Well tell 'em if I don't survive

I was born free!
I was born free
I was born free, born free.

Free, like a river raging
Strong as the wind I’m facing.
Chasing dreams and racing father time.
Deep like the grandest canyon,
Wild like an untamed stallion.
If you can’t see my heart you must be blind.

You can knock me down and watch me bleed
But you can’t keep no chains on me.

I was born free!
I was born free
I was born free, born free.

And I'm not good at long goodbyes
But look down deep into my eyes
I was born free.

Calm, facing danger
Lost, like an unknown stranger
Grateful for my time with no regrets

Close to my destination
Tired, frail and aching
Waiting patiently for the sun to set

And when its done, believe that I
will yell it from that mountain high

I was born free
I was born free
I was born free, born free

I will bow to the shining seas
And I will celebrate God's grace on thee

I was born free

I was born free

I was born free, born free

Explore, Dream, Discover

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things

that you didn't do than by the ones you did do.

So throw off the bowlines.

Sail away from the safe harbor.

Catch the trade winds in your sails.

Explore. Dream. Discover."

Mark Twain

Need I say more on a day like today

I'm finally starting to get it

I miss you my friend

Friends can help each other. A true friend is someone who lets you have total freedom to be yourself-and especially to feel. Or, not feel. Whatever you happen to be feeling at the moment is fine with them. That's what real love amounts to-letting a person be what he really is.

Jim Morrison

(American Musician)

LoL

Gotta love Garfield :o)

*Sigh*

Been taking a walk down memory lane today (don't ask), with all the old albums I never listen to anymore and had forgotten I had. It's funny how many songs I've heard today that I didn't even realise I knew the lyrics to. Also came across a few that I'm embarrassed to admit are hopelessly corny but mean so much to me. It's also funny how hearing a song you haven't heard in lord knows how long can bring back all those feelings from so long ago and make you think of people and things that you really don't want to be thinking of.

Yes I'm about to embarrass myself and post my 2 of my favourite verses from Air Supply the first from 2 less lonely people and the second from I can wait forever. Hey, don't blame me I'm a child of the 80's and as much as the 80's had good rock it had it's fair share of corny to :o)

Then you smiled and I reached out to you
I could tell you were lonely too
One look then it all began for you and me
The moment that we touched I knew that there would be


When you say, I miss the things you do,
I just wanna get back close again to you.
But for now, your voice is near enough,
How I miss you, when I miss you, love.
And though,
All the days that pass me by so slow
All the emptiness inside me flows, all around,
And there's no way out
I'm just thinking' so much of you,
There was never any doubt...
I can wait forever,

Born to be your baby

Rainy night and they worked all day
We both got jobs cause there's bills to pay
We got something they can't take away
Our love, our lives

Close the door, leave the cold outside
I don't need nothing when I'm by your side
We got something that'll never die
Our dreams, our pride

My heart beats like a drum (all night)
Flesh to flesh, one to one (and it's alright)
And I'll never let go cause
There's something I know deep inside

You were born to be my baby
And baby, I was made to be your man

We got something to believe in
Even if we don't know where we stand
Only God would know the reasons
But I bet he must have had a plan
Cause you were born to be my baby
And baby, I was made to be your man

Light a candle, blow the world away
Table for two on a TV tray
It ain't fancy, baby that's OK
Our time, our way

So hold me close better hold on tight
Buckle up, baby, it's a bumpy ride
We're two kids hitching down the road of life
Our world, our flight

If we stand side by side (all night)
There's a chance we'll get by (and it's alright)
And I'll know that you'll believe
In my heart till the day I die

Cause you were born to be my baby
And baby, I was made to be your man

We got something to believe in
Even if we don't know where we stand
Only God would know the reasons
But I bet he must have had a plan
Cause you were born to be my baby
And baby, I was made to be your man

My heart beats like a drum (all night)
Flesh to flesh, one to one (and it's alright)
And I'll never let go cause
There's something I know deep inside

Cause you were born to be my baby
And baby, I was made to be your man

We got something to believe in
Even if we don't know where we stand
Only God would know the reasons
But I bet he must have had a plan

Cause you were born to be my baby
And baby, I was made to be your man

You were born to be my baby
And baby, I was made to be your man

From now I

Give without remembering

Receive without forgetting

Yes I do

Not as long as I have a breath in me :)

"I've learned that people will forget what you said,

people will forget what you did,

but people will never forget how you made them feel."

Maya Angelou [American autobiographer and poet]

My Monday Mantra

Just popping in to say

Enjoy the rest of the week everyone :)
Have an AWSOME weekend
And I'll see you next week

I AM

I'm stronger because of my hard times,

wiser because of my mistakes,

happier because of my sad experiences,

and smarter because of my moments of confusion

True Beauty

Beauty truly is in the eye of the beholder.

Behold I see beauty.

Well the 2nd most beautiful pair of feet I've ever seen at least.

:)

Just dont know.

There's so much going on again.
I have so much on my mind.
And I just dont know anymore whats expected of me.
Who or what I'm meant to be.
I thought I'd conquered at least some of this.
I guess I was wrong.
Guess you could say I'm officially lost
even if it's only in thought

True Colours

You with the sad eyes
don't be discouraged
oh I realize
it's hard to take courage
in a world full of people
you can lose sight of it all
and the darkness inside you
can make you fell so small

But I see your true colors
shining through
I see your true colors
and that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors
true colors are beautiful
like a rainbow

Show me a smile then
don't be unhappy, can't remember
when I last saw you laughing
if this world makes you crazy
and you've taken all you can bear
you call me up
because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colors
shining through
I see your true colors
and that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors
true colors are beautiful
like a rainbow

*****

I see YOU and you're like all the colours of the rainbow to me