Embarassed

Yes, I am.
I said something here the other day that really wasn't aimed at the recipient
but as usual in my anger and hurt inflicted by others I was lashing out at the
person who means the most to me in the world. My best friend and the one
person I know I can always rely on to tell it to me as it is.
I'm so sorry.
I wish I could take my words back and no I'm not
taking down the post I want it there as a reminder of exactly how
STUPID I can be sometimes.

Black Tuesday, death of the democracy Mandela fought for ???

"████ ██ █ ████ everything ███ ███ is███████ ████ fine ████ ███ love, ███████ ███ your █████ ████ government."

You were right

You finally made me cry.
It's no fun realising you're not even worth 10mins of someones time

Worthless, pathetic, yes thats me

Silent Lucidity

Hush now don't you cry
Wipe away the teardrop from your eye
You're lying safe in bed
It was all a bad dream spinning in your head
Your mind tricked you to feel the pain
Of someone close to you leaving the game of life
So here it is another chance
Wide awake you face the day
Your dream is over or has it just begun

There's a place I like to hide
A doorway that I run through in the night
Relax child, you were there
But only didn't realize and you were scared
It's a place where you will learn
To face your fears retrace the years
And ride the whims of your mind
Commanding in another world
Suddenly you hear and see
This magic new dimension
I-will be watching over you
I-I'm gonna help you see it though
I-will protect you in the night
I-I'm smiling next to you in silent lucidity

If you open your mind for me
You won't rely on open eyes to see
The walls you build within come tumbling down
And a new world will begin
Living twice at once you learn
You're safe from pain in the dream domain
A soul set free to fly
A round trip journey in your head
Master of Illusion can you realize
Your dream's alive you can be the guide but
(I) will be watching over you
(I) I'm gonna help you see it though
(I) will protect you in the night
(I) I'm smiling next to you

Queesryche

Somedays are just so much clearer than others.
I have no choice.
This is the path I have been chosen to walk, as much as I question.
The pain and confusion I feel is a lesson whether my own or that I have to impart to others.
I am where I am meant to be and I will continue to be there for as long as it's needed of me.
The love I feel is both my blessing and my curse but it is meant to be

My Declaration

I'll take you just the way you are
imperfect words inside the perfect song
I feel you closer than you are
but I've been waiting far too long,
too long

It's my declaration
to anyone whose listening
You're my inspiration
as I stand alone against the world
cause you love,
and you bleed,
and you stole my soul to set me free
It's my declaration

Do you care what I believe
('cause I'm still breathing)
or that I wear your heart upon my sleeve
sometimes I think you never knew
the only truth I see is
You
It's you

It's my declaration
to anyone whose listening
You're my inspiration
as I stand alone against the world
cause you love,
and you bleed,
and you stole my soul to set me free
It's my declaration

and are there any words to say
that I would ever mean enough
when the light runs from the day
Will the darkness be too much?
Will I ever be enough?

It's my declaration
to anyone whose listening
You're my inspiration
as I stand alone against the world
cause you love,
and you bleed,
and you stole my soul to set me free

It's my declaration
so tell me you can hear these words tonight

It's my declaration

Lost

Seems I'm more lost than I thought
Recently I've lost love
I've lost my happiness
I've lost the ability to see beauty
I've lost my inner peace
and now I've lost hope
Guess there is nothing left
to do or say
Time I think for me to disappear

Precisely how I feel every time I look at you

I never thought that you would be the one
to hold my heart

But you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start



You put your arms around me

And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go

You put your arms around me and I'm home



How many times will you let me change my mind and turn around

I can't decide if I'll let you save my life or if I'll drown



I hope that you see right through my walls

I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling

I'll never let a love get so close

You put your arms around me and I'm home



The world is coming down on me and I can't find a reason to be loved

I never wanna leave you but I can't make you bleed if I'm alone



You put your arms around me

And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go



I hope that you see right through my walls

I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling

I'll never let a love get so close

You put your arms around me and I'm home



I tried my best to never let you in to see the truth

And I've never opened up

I've never truly loved 'Till you put your arms around me

And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go





I hope that you see right through my walls

I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling

I'll never let a love get so close

You put your arms around me and I'm home



You put your arms around me and I'm home

Lyrics to Arms by Christina Perry