Vanilla Twilight

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

But the dog really DID eat my homework !!!!!

Need I say more

Just a thought

"To learn how to use your head you have to go out of your mind"

Unknown

Lost, undiscovered who the h3ll knows :/

"Undiscovered"

I look at you, you bite your tongue
You don't know why or where I'm coming from
But in my head I'm close to you
We're in the rain still searching for the sun

You think that I want to run and hide
That I keep it all locked up inside but I just want you to find me

I'm not lost; not lost, just undiscovered
And when we're alone we are all the same as each other

You see the look that's on my face
You might think I'm out of place
I'm not lost, no, no, just undiscovered

Well the time it takes to know someone
It all can change before you know it's gone
So close your eyes feel the way I'm with you now
Believe there's nothing wrong

You think that I wanna run and hide
I'll keep it all locked up inside
But I just want you to find me
I'm not lost, I'm not lost, just undiscovered
And when we're alone we're all the same as each other
You see the look that's on my face
You might think I'm out of place
I'm not lost, no, no, just undiscovered

I'm not running
I'm not hiding
If you dig a little deeper you will find me

I'm not lost, not lost, just undiscovered
And when we're alone we're all the same as each other
You see the look that's on my face, you might think that I'm out of place
I'm not lost, no, no, just undiscovered

I'm not lost, not lost, just undiscovered
And when we're alone we're all the same as each other
You see the look that's on my face, you might think that I'm out of place
I'm not lost, no, no, just undiscovered

What can I say I'm not sure if I'm lost or just undiscovered, either way I need finding:(

Round and round we go

My gauntlet is thrown

Throwing down the gauntlet.

Love is the opening of the heart, the welcoming of your beloved.

Loving is not secure, authentic loving is risky.

Security lies behind the walls of a closed heart.

You either invite the union by opening in love,

or you secure the isolation by closing down.

Beauty

This caught my eye, for some reason it screams TRUE BEAUTY to me :)

A picture paints a thousand words

If Everyone Cared

I know I've posted these before but they just tie up with my earlier post so nicely so here they are again :)

"If Everyone Cared"

From underneath the trees, we watch the sky
Confusing stars for satellites
I never dreamed that you'd be mine
But here we are, we're here tonight

Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive


If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died

And I'm singing

Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive
Amen I, Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive

And in the air the fireflies
Our only light in paradise
We'll show the world they were wrong
And teach them all to sing along

Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
(I'm alive)



And as we lie beneath the stars
We realize how small we are
If they could love like you and me
Imagine what the world could be

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died
When nobody died...



We'd see the day, we'd see the day
When nobody died
We'd see the day, we'd see the day
When nobody died
We'd see the day when nobody died

Arundhati Roy

"Time to be serious now, but here is something that has to receive attention. Make it viral, make people know. Arundhati Roy is a writer, a beautiful humanist who sees the pain in people, and conveys it with such grace, and empathy, you cannot but feel you have been tranplanted into her world. As painful as that would be. " David SA Essay

Dear all of you,
I am sending this from Srinagar. This is my statement in response to the news that I may be arrested soon on charges of sedition. It would be lovely if the whole statement is carried— which is why I am not sending it to the wire services.
All the best
Arundhati

STATEMENT BY ARUNDHATI ROY

I write this from Srinagar, Kashmir. This morning’s papers say that I may be arrested on charges of sedition for what I have said at recent public meetings on Kashmir. I said what millions of people here say every day. I said what I, as well as other commentators have written and said for years. Anybody who cares to read the transcripts of my speeches will see that they were fundamentally a call for justice. I spoke about justice for the people of Kashmir who live under one of the most brutal military occupations in the world; for Kashmiri Pandits who live out the tragedy of having been driven out of their homeland; for Dalit soldiers killed in Kashmir whose graves I visited on garbage heaps in their villages in Cuddalore; for the Indian poor who pay the price of this occupation in material ways and who are now learning to live in the terror of what is becoming a police state.

Yesterday I traveled to Shopian, the apple-town in South Kashmir which had remained closed for 47 days last year in protest against the brutal rape and murder of Asiya and Nilofer, the young women whose bodies were found in a shallow stream near their homes and whose murderers have still not been brought to justice. I met Shakeel, who is Nilofer’s husband and Asiya’s brother. We sat in a circle of people crazed with grief and anger who had lost hope that they would ever get ‘insaf’—justice—from India, and now believed that Azadi—freedom— was their only hope. I met young stone pelters who had been shot through their eyes. I traveled with a young man who told me how three of his friends, teenagers in Anantnag district, had been taken into custody and had their finger-nails pulled out as punishment for throwing stones.

In the papers some have accused me of giving ‘hate-speeches’, of wanting India to break up. On the contrary, what I say comes from love and pride. It comes from not wanting people to be killed, raped, imprisoned or have their finger-nails pulled out in order to force them to say they are Indians. It comes from wanting to live in a society that is striving to be a just one. Pity the nation that has to silence its writers for speaking their minds. Pity the nation that needs to jail those who ask for justice, while communal killers, mass murderers, corporate scamsters, looters, rapists, and those who prey on the poorest of the poor, roam free.

Arundhati Roy

October 26 2010

Now I'm not in the habit of copying from other blogs but a friend posted this, this morning and it's one of those things that just, actually no I'm not going to tell you what it should or shouldn't do. Read it for yourself, Google her, and judge for yourself and then you decide.

What I will say though is this.

There is so much wrong with the thought of someone who is acting out of love for their fellow man being persecuted by the powers that be.
It scares me that in this day and age we still condone this type of behavior all be it by our simply doing nothing.
Yes, this is a situation that many of us can't get directly involved in but we can do is raise awareness, what we can do is get this story out there, what we can do is give her an audience and raise her profile and maybe, just maybe these people who persist in persecuting people like Arundhati Roy will be seen for what they are COWARDS

Sinead O'Connor rediscovered

Only You
Sinead O’Connor

My love
Your love
Has opened up a world I’ve never known
All hope
Was found
A place I never dreamed I would go
Feels like only yesterday I had locked my heart away
Safe behind a castle of stone
Sure I’d always be alone
Only you know how
To hear me through the silence
You reach a part of me that no one else can see
Forever true there’s only me and only you
Only me and you

In your face I trust
With you beside me I am standing strong
One truth
Two hearts
You took my life and made it beautiful
So you dared to let me shine
Even walk a step behind
Willingly you give yourself to me
Knowing who I was born to be
Only you know how
To hear me through the silence
You reach a part of me that no one else can see
Forever true there’s only me
And only you
Only me and you

Only you know how
To hear me through the silence
You reach a part of me that no one else can see
Forever true there’s only me
And only you
Only me and you

Happiness

The happiness of life is made up of minute fractions—the little soon-forgotten charities of a kiss, a smile, a kind look, a heartfelt compliment in the disguise of a playful raillery, and the countless other infinitessimals of pleasurable thought and genial feeling.

Samuel Taylor Coleridge

Yes I am

Made me think of YOU

To go against the dominant thinking of your friends,

of most of the people you see every day,

is perhaps the most difficult act of heroism you can perform.

- Theodore H. White

Sad

I think I've posted these before but I decided to post them again anyway.

I'm feeling a little nostalgic and more than a little heart sore today. You see I've come to the sad realisation that as much as I deny it, I am just like everyone else and just like everyone else I want someone to love and to love me, someone to be seen by me and who sees me, someone who appreciates me and the fact that I give of myself completely, someone who needs me and needs to be needed by me. I need to be someone's more than anyone just like I need someone to be my more than anyone. Looking back I also realise that it's something I've never really had, I thought I had for just a moment but I think I was wrong and that makes me very sad

More Than Anyone"

Gavin De Graw

You need a friend
I'll be around
Don't let this end
Before I see you again
What can I say to convince you
To change your mind of me?
I'm going to love you more than anyone
I'm going to hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm going to love you more than anyone
Look in my eyes, what do you see?
Not just the color
Look inside of me
Tell me all you need and I will try
I will try
I'm going to love you more than anyone
I'm going to hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm going to love you more than anyone
Free for you, whenever you need
We'll be free together baby
Free together baby
I'm going to love you more than anyone
I'm going to hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm going to love you more than anyone

I'm going to try

:)

Me thinks if I wasn't such a girl I may have just found my tattoo

It's Time

You would measure time the measureless and the immeasurable. You would adjust your conduct and even direct the course of your spirit according to hours and seasons. Of time you would make a stream upon whose bank you would sit and watch its flowing.

Yet the timeless in you is aware of life's timelessness, And knows that yesterday is but today's memory and tomorrow is today's dream. And that that which sings and contemplates in you is still dwelling within the bounds of that first moment which scattered the stars into space. Who among you does not feel that his power to love is boundless?

And yet who does not feel that very love, though boundless, encompassed within the centre of his being, and moving not from love thought to love thought, nor from love deeds to other love deeds? And is not time even as love is, undivided and spaceless? But if in your thought you must measure time into seasons, let each season encircle all the other seasons, And let today embrace the past with remembrance and the future with longing.

Khalil Gibran

:)

"A man should not strive to eliminate his complexes but to get into accord with them: they are legitimately what directs his conduct in the world."

Sigmund Freud

I like the way it hurts

Ok, so now you know one of my guilty secrets. Sometimes I listen to Eminem.

There's just something about his lyrics, he always seems to be able to touch that one

nerve I don't want exposed. This one brings back SO much even though it's a new one

Love the way you lie

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down

Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Liberate yourself

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

~ Maryanne Williamson

Reading this just now, gave me a serious case of goosebumps

RIP

Do Good

"Do all the good you can, by all the means you can, in all the ways you can, in all the places you can, at all the times you can, to all the people you can, as long as ever you can."

John Wesley

The music has spoken

and who am I to argue. Don't know why but theres something about this songs lyrics this morning.

Security

Joss Stone

A loss that would have thrown
A hole through anybody's soul
And you were only human after all
So don't hold back the tears my dear
Release them so your eyes can clear
I know that you will rise again
But you gotta let them fall
I wish that I could snap my fingers
Erase the past but no
You cannot rewind reality
Once the tape's all unrolled

Chorus:
If your spirit's broken and you can't bear the pain
I will help you put the pieces back
A little more each day
And if your heart is locked and you can't find the key
Lay your head upon my shoulder
I'll set you free
I'll be your security

A moment of despair
That forces you to say that life's unfair
It makes you scared of what tomorrow may bring
But don't go giving into fear
Stop hiding all alone in there
The show keeps going on and on
But you'll miss the whole damn thing
I wish I had a crystal ball to see what the future holds
But we don't know how the story ends till it's already told

Chorus

On any clock upon the wall
The time is always now
So baby kiss the past goodbye
Don't let the future blow your mind
Just sit back and chill
Take things as they come
You can't be afraid
To live for today
I will be with you each step of the way

More not so random quotes

The greater your capacity to love,

the greater your capacity to feel the pain.

~Jennifer Aniston

~*~

People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.

~Jim Morrison

~*~

We must embrace pain

and burn it as fuel for our journey.

~Kenji Miyazawa

~*~

Wisdom is nothing more than healed pain.

~Robert Gary Lee

~*~

The pain passes, but the beauty remains.

~Pierre-Auguste Renoir

~*~

Given the choice between the experience of pain and nothing,

I would choose pain

~William Faulkner

~*~

If you are distressed by anything external,

the pain is not due to the thing itself but to your own estimate of it;

and this you have the power to revoke at any moment.

~Marcus Aurelius

Random Quotes:

~*~

"To work in the world lovingly means

that we are defining what we will be for,

rather than reacting to what we are against."

- Christina Baldwin

~*~

“All men desire peace, but

very few desire those things that make for peace.”

- Thomas A. Kempis

~*~

“For hatred is corrosive of a person’s wisdom and conscience; the mentality of enmity can poison a nation’s spirit, instigate brutal life-and-death struggles, destroy a society’s tolerance and humanity. I hope therefore … to counter the hostility of the regime with the best of intentions, and defuse hate with love.”

- Liu Xiaobo, a literature professor, essayist, and dissident, awarded the 2010 Nobel Peace Prize. (Source: Los Angeles Times)

Well actually they're not so random, but then again nothing really is.

Peace

Behold

I am the Fire around you.
I am the spark of life within you.
I am the flame burning through you.
I am all that I am.

Behold, there is magic all around us.
Behold, there is magic all around us.
Behold, there is magic all around us.
Awaken! Rejoice! Sing!

– from “Behold” by Abbi Spinner

:)

It's funny for the last little while I've been posting all these random little bits and pieces that caught my eye, well mostly because there has been so much going on in my life that I just couldn't string two sentences together that made any sense to me, let alone anyone else and well I also had to find something I had lost.

Me.

Sitingg looking back at them today they all have something to say about where I was on that particular day and some made me smile and some well lets just say tears and tissues were never far away .

Now of course this all started with the inner turmoil started by the ending of one chapter in my life and the begining of another. Well actually more than one but hey who is really counting anyway. And thats a whole other post anyway.

What I wanted to say and started to say with one of my other posts today actually was.........Thank You.

Yes, thank you , you see I've been blessed in ways I hadn't even realised till now. I have a handful, ok, ok you got me it's 3 of the most amazing friends a girl could want. They're always there for me and I can honestly say I don't even want to think about what I'd do without them.
No matter how bad things are they're always there with an encouraging word or something to make me smile and sometimes with the answers I just haven't been able to find by myself.

You guys are the greatest and I luv you stax
Thank you

Peace

Thank you

Thanks for being there despite my not being very lovable of late

Mmmmmmmmmmmm

Millions and millions of years would still not give me half enough time

to describe that tiny instant of all eternity

when you put your arms around me and I put my arms around you.

~Jacques Prévert

Sometimes he's the wisest doctor I know :)

You have brains in your head.

You have feet in your shoes.

You can steer yourself in any direction you choose.

You're on your own.

And you know what you know.

You are the guy who'll decide where to go.

Dr Suess

I will love

‎"It matters not who you love,

where you love,

why you love,

when you love,

or how you love.

It matters only that you love."

John Lennon

(9 Oct 1940 – 8 Dec 1980)

Just me

Life

Me thinks it's time that we remember to live life and to stop just existing because thats what makes others happy. It's time to remember to live for ourselves and what makes us happy.

I may be in for a bumpy ride but thats sure as h3ll what I intend to do.

Live, Laugh and Love

*shrug*

Don't really know why I'm posting these, was listening to some old stuff and this, well

it kinda spoke to me:o/

Beautiful Loser (Bob Seger)

He wants to dream like a young man
With the wisdom of an old man
He wants his home and security
He wants to live like a sailor at sea

Beautiful loser
Where you gonna fall?
When you realize
You just can't have it all

He's your oldest and your best friend
If you need him, he'll be there again
He's always willing to be second-best
A perfect lodger, a perfect guest

Beautiful loser
Read it on the wall
And realize
You just can't have it all
You just can't have it all

You just can't have it all
Ohh, ohh, can't have it all
You can try, you can try, but you can't have it all
Oh yeah

He'll never make any enemies, enemies, no
He won't complain if he's caught in a freeze
He'll always ask, he'll always say please

Beautiful loser
Never take it all
'Cause it's easier
And faster when you fall

You just don't need it all
You just don't need it all

Trying to find my way

You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to
feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in
knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain
loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and
worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a
part of your life."

— Bob Marley

So very true,

"Many a small thing has been made large by the right kind of advertising."

Mark Twain

Ok, so this is silly :)

I came across these and they made me think of a friend ........

Success here I come

"There is only one success - to be able to spend your life in your own way."

Christopher Morley

No More

"Don't Postpone Joy." Think about it. Think about all the people you have known who have said, "Some day......" or "When I....I will..." or how about, "I'm focusing only on my career right now, but someday I want to travel..."

And then something happens and they never got to experience their dreams and the plans that would have brought them joy.

Don't Postpone Joy

Something I'm having a lot of trouble remembering at the moment:/

It really is too easy to postpone joy and those things that will make you happy.

But NO MORE

I wish it would rain

On an Island

Remember that night
White steps in the moonlight
They walked here too
Through empty playground, this ghosts' town
Children again, on rusting swings getting higher
Sharing a dream, on an island, it felt right

We lay side by side
'tween the moon and the tide
Mapping the stars for awhile

Let the night surround you
We're halfway to the stars
Ebb and flow
Let it go
Feel her warmth beside you

Remember that night
The warmth and the laughter
Candles burned
Though the church was deserted
At dawn we went down through empty streets to the harbour
Dreamers may leave, but they're here ever after

Let the night surround you
We're halfway to the stars
Ebb and Flow
Let it go
Feel her warmth beside you

For someone special, you know why;)

"The biggest lie on the planet: When I get what I want, I will be happy."

Source Unknown

Yep, just another random silly picture today. I've got so much I want to say, so much I NEED to say and yet I'm still speechless:/

Guess I just need to face that my world is fading away *shrug*

It's time

I. . . . . . . . . you

I something you

Every time somebody says
I love you
it loses some of it's clout so
I've decided not to say it again.
I hope you understand.
Please don't take it personally.
You know the way I feel about you.
I South Korea you.
I little blue blazer with brass buttons you.
I Kindergarten Cop you.
More than ever.

Credit goes to Michael Crowe and another blog I read :)

Smaller we are

I SO rock figured out embedding and smaller all in one night

*does crazy happy dance*

And yes it's time to IMAGINE

For you

This one's for you my angel.

Me thinks Google did good :)

Ps. I may have figured out embedding, but making it smaller I haven't :(

If you want the full effect double click ;)