Just a thought

Everybody seems to want to negotiate everything these days.

Whether it's, a cellphone contract, a new car or even worse who and how they love.

Well I'm sorry I may be open to compromise on a lot of things

but

Who I Love and how I love them is

NOT NEGOTIABLE

Welcome to the weekend

Never

I don’t know why she’s with me
I only brought her trouble since the day she met me
If I was her, by now I would have left me
I would have walked away
But now I’ve broken away
Somehow instead she forgave me
She said a woman’s got to do what she’s got to do
Even if it means she denied herself the truth
Cause when you’re in too deep you wake up when it’s too late,
You’ve fallen in love in the worst way
And if you don’t go now then you’ll stay
Cause I’ll never let you leave, never let you breathe
Cause if you’re looking for heaven, baby it sure as hell ain’t me

So walk away
(walk away)
Walk away, oh
Save yourself from the heartache, oh
Go now before it’s too late
So walk away
(walk away)
Walk away, oh
Save yourself from the heartache, oh
Go now before it’s too late
But still she stays

She’s standing in the heart of darkness
Saying I know you got a soul even though you’re heartless
How could any woman in their right mind be so blind,
To find something this safe
Instead of walking with me she should have walked away

She finds color in the darkest places
She finds beauty in the saddest of faces
For such a clued in, headstrong city girl
Could’ve had the world but she’s fallen in love in the worst way
And if you don’t go now then you’ll stay
Cause I’ll never let you leave, never let you breathe
Cause if you’re looking for heaven, baby it sure as hell ain’t me

So walk away
(walk away)
Walk away, oh
Save yourself from the heartache, oh
Go now before it’s too late
So walk away
(walk away)
Walk away, oh
Save yourself from the heartache, oh
Go now before it’s too late
But still she stays
(Oh, yeah)
But still she stays
(Oh, yeah)

I don’t know why she’s with me
I only brought her trouble since the day she met me
If I was her, by now I would have left me
I would have walked away

But you’ve fallen in love in the worst way
And if you don’t go now then you’ll stay
Cause I’ll never let you leave, never let you breathe
Cause if you’re looking for heaven, baby it sure as hell ain’t me

So walk away
(walk away)
Walk away, oh
Save yourself from the heartache, oh
Go now before it’s too late
So walk away
(walk away)
Walk away, oh
Save yourself from the heartache, oh
Go now before it’s too late
But still she stays

(Yeah)
But still she stays, eh
I’m saying walk away
Yeah
I’m saying walk away
(Save yourself from the heartache, go now before it’s too late)
But still she stays
Still she stays
Yeah, she stays
She stays

Almost

Then I was somewhere else, and it was bright. A voice said

"If you'd carried on practicing that song you almost got right, you would've been great. Bigger than the Beatles."

It continued

"If you'd carried on working on that book you almost finished, it would've changed the lives of many, many people."

Then it said

"If you'd tried to reach the one you loved just a little bit more, when you almost had them, your life would've been completely different."

And I asked

"Is this what happens when I die?"

And the voice said

"Almost."

I borrowed this one from here, It's just too good not to share and frankly it made me think of someone very special so I thought I'd let them know I'm thinking of you ;)

Stuck in an 80's rock rut today :)

Open Arms lyrics

Songwriters: Cain, Jonathan; Perry, Steve;

Lying beside you here in the dark
Feeling your heart beat with mine
Softly you whisper, you're so sincere
How could our love be so blind?

We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are by my side

So now I come to you with open arms
Nothing to hide, believe what I say
So here I am with open arms
Hoping you'll see what your love means to me,

Open arms

Living without you, living alone
This empty house seems so cold
Wanting to hold you, wanting you near
How much I wanted you home

But now that you've come back
Turned night into day
I need you to stay

So now I come to you with open arms
Nothing to hide, believe what I say
So here I am with open arms
Hoping you'll see what your love means to me

Open arms

*Insert some witty title generated by my witty title generator*

I always seem to be being told to let go and clear my mind these days.

Long story, which has me with way to much on my mind really but that's not the point here;)

Anyway back to what this is about.

Meditation isn't either but it lends a little to what I feel i want to say today.

To some this is something they can't live without but to me it's always been a bit of a swear word because for some reason I've never been able to really let go and clear my mind. Something always pops in to my head that distracts me and so these attempts have left me feeling more of a failure than anything else so I've pretty much avoided it.

Never being one to just give up though, I've kept on dabbling despite not succeeding. So in the early hours of this morning since I wasn't sleeping anyway I decided to give it a try again.

Lit some candles, lit some incense sticks, got comfyish on the floor and focused on the flame and attempted to clear my mind. No easy feat really when you have as much on your mind as I currently do but that's besides the point.

So here I am 2.30 in the morning sitting on the floor, staring at this flame feeling like a bit of a noonah cause I kept on thinking about all the stuff going on :/ And then it it happened. A peace like I haven't experienced before. It's hard to describe and I'm not going to try, that would just be silly. Suffice it to say, I may give this meditation thing another try.

Anyway that's actually not why I started this post really but it seemed appropriate to share considering that what I actually wanted to say comes out of this experience. When I finally started to get a little chilly at around 3.45 and blew out my candles and got up off the floor, a verse out of a song was rattling round my head, actually can't seem to get rid of it even now so I thought I'd share it. Not to much of a fan Robbie Williams although I will admit to adoring one of his songs but this line just seems so important right now for so many different reasons.

So as Robbie Williams says

" If you're willing to change the world

Let LOVE be your energy

I can't contain how I feel

When your love shines down on me"

Hope you all have a day filled with LOVE, Laughter and Light