We spend so much of our lives living in what if .......
What if I was thinner? , What if I'd stayed with him?
What if I did this? , What if I'd gone?
What if he did that? What if I'd stayed?
What if we had?, What if we hadn't?
What if I had more money?, What if I'd taken the job?
and the millions of other what if's we ask ourselves on a daily basis. Well it's time to let go of what if and start living WHAT IS............. accept what is and make an effort to make the best of the situation. Grasp what you have been given with both hands and take the time to enjoy it and to explore just how good it can be and if it doesn't last instead of asking what if, say it was and then move forward with your new what is.
So from here on out I will be living WHAT IS, laughing at WHAT IS, loving who and WHAT IS and learning that WHAT IS is where I'm meant to be
but most of all I will be remembering "it's NOT about WHAT IF but about WHAT IS"
quote courtesy of Jim Carrey
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Monday, January 26, 2009
Doomed
Looking at any news broadcast these days makes you realise that humanity is NOT learning from the past and is therefore doomed to continue to make the same mistakes.
All one has to do is look at the situation in Gaza, here we have a people being persecuted by the very same people who themselves where persedcuted by the Nazi's.
How come the rest of the world stepped in to assist at a cost of millions of innocent lives then and yet today sits back and does nothing??????
Have we instead of moving forward and learing to value human life, in fact stepped backwards in time to a time where human life means nothing.
As South Africans we experience needless death on a daily basis with a crime situation where your life is valued at less than that of a cellphone and yet we to sit back and do nothing, our lives are just as valueless as those of the Palestinians in Gaza. Or at least so it would appear. (Please dont think that I am in anyway trying to make light of or compare the Gaza situation, the only similarity is our lack of humanity and action on either count)
Are we as "humans" going to sit back and watch this happen, are we going to continue to allow the powers that be decide who is worthy and who is not?
Are we going to continue to do nothing about the situations both in Gaza and here???
Are we going to wait till the death toll in both places reaches millions before we as the human race stand up and say NO MORE?????
Because if that is the case then we as a human race are DOOMED and our end can not come fast enough.
In this situation there really is nothing to laugh about, there is little about the human race to love and there certainly is no will to change the way we live..........I for one though am going to learn from history and attempt to make a difference no matter how small it may seem
All one has to do is look at the situation in Gaza, here we have a people being persecuted by the very same people who themselves where persedcuted by the Nazi's.
How come the rest of the world stepped in to assist at a cost of millions of innocent lives then and yet today sits back and does nothing??????
Have we instead of moving forward and learing to value human life, in fact stepped backwards in time to a time where human life means nothing.
As South Africans we experience needless death on a daily basis with a crime situation where your life is valued at less than that of a cellphone and yet we to sit back and do nothing, our lives are just as valueless as those of the Palestinians in Gaza. Or at least so it would appear. (Please dont think that I am in anyway trying to make light of or compare the Gaza situation, the only similarity is our lack of humanity and action on either count)
Are we as "humans" going to sit back and watch this happen, are we going to continue to allow the powers that be decide who is worthy and who is not?
Are we going to continue to do nothing about the situations both in Gaza and here???
Are we going to wait till the death toll in both places reaches millions before we as the human race stand up and say NO MORE?????
Because if that is the case then we as a human race are DOOMED and our end can not come fast enough.
In this situation there really is nothing to laugh about, there is little about the human race to love and there certainly is no will to change the way we live..........I for one though am going to learn from history and attempt to make a difference no matter how small it may seem
Friday, January 23, 2009
Crashed
Well I was moving at the speed of sound.
Head-spinning, couldn't find my way around, and
Didn't know that I was going down.
Yeah, yeah.
Where I've been, well it's all a blur.
What I was looking for, I'm not sure.
Too late and didn't see it coming.
Yeah, yeah.
And then I crashed into you,
And I went up in flames.
Could've been the death of me,
But then you breathed your breath in me.
And I crashed into you,
Like a runaway train.
You will consume me,
But I can't walk away
Somehow, I couldn't stop myself.
I just wanted to know how it felt.
Too strong, I couldn't hold on.
Yeah, yeah.
Now I'm just tryin' to make some sense
Out of how and why this happened.
Where we're heading, there's just no knowing.
Yeah, yeah.
And then I crashed into you,
And I went up in flames.
Could've been the death of me,
But then you breathed your breath in me.
And I crashed into you,Like a runaway train.
You will consume me,
But I can't walk away.
From your face, your eyes
Are burning to me.
You saved me, you gave me
Just what I need.
Oh, just what I need.
And then I crashed into you,
And I went up in flames.
Could've been the death of me,
But then you breathed your breath in me.
And I crashed into you,
Like a runaway train.
You will consume me,
But I can't walk away.
And then I crashed into you,
And then I crashed into you,
And then I crashed into you,
And then I crashed into you,
And I crashed into you,
Like a runaway train.
You will consume me,
But I can't walk away
This song says so much to me, it makes me realise that I actually had no choice in the choices I've made recently, that it was inevitable, that eventually someone was going to come along that opened my eyes and showed me the way to being myself and who I need to be. And to you, yes you THANK YOU, I will be eternally grateful that it was YOU that I crashed into ..... ..... .... .....
Head-spinning, couldn't find my way around, and
Didn't know that I was going down.
Yeah, yeah.
Where I've been, well it's all a blur.
What I was looking for, I'm not sure.
Too late and didn't see it coming.
Yeah, yeah.
And then I crashed into you,
And I went up in flames.
Could've been the death of me,
But then you breathed your breath in me.
And I crashed into you,
Like a runaway train.
You will consume me,
But I can't walk away
Somehow, I couldn't stop myself.
I just wanted to know how it felt.
Too strong, I couldn't hold on.
Yeah, yeah.
Now I'm just tryin' to make some sense
Out of how and why this happened.
Where we're heading, there's just no knowing.
Yeah, yeah.
And then I crashed into you,
And I went up in flames.
Could've been the death of me,
But then you breathed your breath in me.
And I crashed into you,Like a runaway train.
You will consume me,
But I can't walk away.
From your face, your eyes
Are burning to me.
You saved me, you gave me
Just what I need.
Oh, just what I need.
And then I crashed into you,
And I went up in flames.
Could've been the death of me,
But then you breathed your breath in me.
And I crashed into you,
Like a runaway train.
You will consume me,
But I can't walk away.
And then I crashed into you,
And then I crashed into you,
And then I crashed into you,
And then I crashed into you,
And I crashed into you,
Like a runaway train.
You will consume me,
But I can't walk away
This song says so much to me, it makes me realise that I actually had no choice in the choices I've made recently, that it was inevitable, that eventually someone was going to come along that opened my eyes and showed me the way to being myself and who I need to be. And to you, yes you THANK YOU, I will be eternally grateful that it was YOU that I crashed into ..... ..... .... .....
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Apologise
yep, thats all I seem to do these days. I apologise for how I feel, I apologise for what I want, I apologise for who I am , I apologise for what I look like, I apologise for trying to become who I want to be, hell I may have even apologised for breathing this week........
WELL NO MORE!!!!!!!!!!!
I am who I am and if you dont like it tough......I am becoming who I want to be, if you dont approve tough, I am finally in a place where I want to be and if you dont like it...YOUR problem
I am tired of trying to live up to what everybody else wants or expects me to be and as of right now I am taking back my life and living it on my terms. If you feel I owe you an apology for something, consider it given and if thats not good enough, to bad.
I am now living my life, laughing if I want to, learning when I can and I will love who and what I want to
WELL NO MORE!!!!!!!!!!!
I am who I am and if you dont like it tough......I am becoming who I want to be, if you dont approve tough, I am finally in a place where I want to be and if you dont like it...YOUR problem
I am tired of trying to live up to what everybody else wants or expects me to be and as of right now I am taking back my life and living it on my terms. If you feel I owe you an apology for something, consider it given and if thats not good enough, to bad.
I am now living my life, laughing if I want to, learning when I can and I will love who and what I want to
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
The man has been inside my head
What I Want (feat. Slash)
It always seemed that I was sorry for the things that I did,
But never did a thing about it 'til I let you in.
It's kinda funny about the time that I was falling apart
.You came and put me back together, now.'
Cause what I wantAnd what I need
Has now become the same thing
You've been offering.
As days go by,
I've finally become what you want me to be.
I still remember all the stupid things that I've said and done,
But still, you stuck around with me when all your friends said, "Run!"
Givin' me a name, I found myself inside all the flames.
Becoming everything for you again.
What I want
And what I need
Has now become the same thing
You've been offering.
As days go by,
I've finally become what you want me to be.
Don't tell me you saw it all along.
God help me, I never knew it alone.
Guess I was wrong.
What I want
And what I need
Has now become the same thing
You've been offering.
As days go by,
I've finally become what you want me to be.
And what I need
Has now become the same thing
You've been offering.
You've taken me,
And shaped me to become what you want me to be
It always seemed that I was sorry for the things that I did,
But never did a thing about it 'til I let you in.
It's kinda funny about the time that I was falling apart
.You came and put me back together, now.'
Cause what I wantAnd what I need
Has now become the same thing
You've been offering.
As days go by,
I've finally become what you want me to be.
I still remember all the stupid things that I've said and done,
But still, you stuck around with me when all your friends said, "Run!"
Givin' me a name, I found myself inside all the flames.
Becoming everything for you again.
What I want
And what I need
Has now become the same thing
You've been offering.
As days go by,
I've finally become what you want me to be.
Don't tell me you saw it all along.
God help me, I never knew it alone.
Guess I was wrong.
What I want
And what I need
Has now become the same thing
You've been offering.
As days go by,
I've finally become what you want me to be.
And what I need
Has now become the same thing
You've been offering.
You've taken me,
And shaped me to become what you want me to be
Daughtry says it best
There And Back Again
Take,
take your time.
Smell the roses, but steal the vines.
Don't wait for the hands of time
To second guess and change your mind.
And shine.
Here's your moment to shine.Shine.
Lay down, my friend.
Close your eyes, breathe in,
And I'll take you there and back again
.No more questions why.
I'm not so surprised
Why you have
Been there and back again.
Replace, replace that line
That spoke to you
And showed no signs to be alive.
So are you livin' or dead?
You have made a choice to hear your voice
Or hold on to what they said.Now, shine.
Here's your moment to shine
.Shine.
Lay down, my friend.
Close your eyes, breathe in,
And I'll take you there and back again.
No more questions why.
I'm not so surprised
Why you have
Been there and back again.
Back again, back again.
Back again, back again.
Lay down, my friend.
Close your eyes, breathe in,
And I'll take you there and back again.
No more questions why.
I'm not so surprised
Why you haveBeen there and back again.
Lay down, my friend.
Close your eyes, breathe in,
And I will take you there and back again.
No more questions why.
I'm not so surprised
Why you have
Been there and back again
Take,
take your time.
Smell the roses, but steal the vines.
Don't wait for the hands of time
To second guess and change your mind.
And shine.
Here's your moment to shine.Shine.
Lay down, my friend.
Close your eyes, breathe in,
And I'll take you there and back again
.No more questions why.
I'm not so surprised
Why you have
Been there and back again.
Replace, replace that line
That spoke to you
And showed no signs to be alive.
So are you livin' or dead?
You have made a choice to hear your voice
Or hold on to what they said.Now, shine.
Here's your moment to shine
.Shine.
Lay down, my friend.
Close your eyes, breathe in,
And I'll take you there and back again.
No more questions why.
I'm not so surprised
Why you have
Been there and back again.
Back again, back again.
Back again, back again.
Lay down, my friend.
Close your eyes, breathe in,
And I'll take you there and back again.
No more questions why.
I'm not so surprised
Why you haveBeen there and back again.
Lay down, my friend.
Close your eyes, breathe in,
And I will take you there and back again.
No more questions why.
I'm not so surprised
Why you have
Been there and back again
Resistance is futile
Yes..................resistance is futile.
I've spent so much time fighting myself and the things I'm feeling recently. Only to realise that the only thing I'm achieving is upsetting myself and actually preventing myself from enjoying what should be a liberating experience. This is after all my life, I should be living it the way I want to and enjoying every moment of it regardless of where any of this leads. A case of if I dont go the distance how can I know if I'll want to go back again.......
Living, alughing, loving and yes learning more every day
I've spent so much time fighting myself and the things I'm feeling recently. Only to realise that the only thing I'm achieving is upsetting myself and actually preventing myself from enjoying what should be a liberating experience. This is after all my life, I should be living it the way I want to and enjoying every moment of it regardless of where any of this leads. A case of if I dont go the distance how can I know if I'll want to go back again.......
Living, alughing, loving and yes learning more every day
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